Ebb and Flow

14 May, 2026

It's weird how you become aware of time as you stare idly at your own ceiling. But the instant you're doing something it's like you don't notice it at all. Needless to say, I'm a bit... whatever these days. I finally started working on things again. Just told myself that it'll become easier to power forward if I just sit down and commit to working on stuff rather than getting overwhelmed and just tossing out another blog entry as a hold over for literally everything. That and I fixed quite a few things here and there. Kinda weird how that happens. I noticed my calendar keeps stretching my front page as well lol. Well, I suppose I did finally make some of the updates promised. It feels better to do that. But there's still a lot of work. I think my next big project will be going through my art and my cds.

I spent the last week watching a bit of anime to kind of get my mind off stuff. I watched a lot of things. I'm actually going to attempt to finish Bleach at some point, because I always got stuck at the same part. I'm also going to go back to FF14 for a while. And also I bought a lot of stuff. I said I wanted to do a room tour, but I think I might wait til I have it all in. I got some new shelves, and quite a few new figures. I probably just have an addiction at this rate, but I'm trying to be responsible at the very least.

I also started doing better about making sure to take my pills earlier in the day. Maybe if I'm lucky, depression won't claim my sleep schedule, and I'll start being awake most of the day rather than the night.

My family asked me what I want for my birthday next month, but truth be told, I don't really know. I already got a stick blender. It's made me a bit more proactive in cooking. Maybe one day I'll be a better cook in general. That way when my grandparents are gone, they can live on through the recipes they taught me.

Maybe that will be my next project. My own list of recipes... It'll give me a reason to see my great grandmother, as well.

Oh yeah, and I finally added a cursor back on all this. I had forgotten about that.

I suppose that's all the thoughts in my head that aren't endless depression vomit for right now.