Day 1 of Fanfest
25 Apr, 2026
So I didn't get to go to fanfest. And because I haven't been in the best mood mentally due to some ongoing issues that I really honestly wish I could talk about on this blog transparently with everyone (but I just cant because well... Someone I know makes it hard.) Like I won't lie and say I'm not caving under pressure here.
Anyways I keep seeing a lot of takes about the combat changes coming to FF14 and I'm just not going to lie, I'm so unhappy about this. I don't want to say "who is this for?" Because I know who this is for. This is for the people who put the bar in the floor, the bar LITERALLY IN HELL, and continue to stumble over it. I got told that I must have a skill issue if I'm unhappy with the new system by a shitton of casuals who can't do ex without a struggle on their main jobs. And I'm just like "Man you guys are all fucking idiots."
But that's besides the point.
New combat changes seem like theyre going to SUCK ASS. I get that this is all preliminary, but everyone I know who's capable of doing content isn't exactly excited themselves, and all the people who are super excited for this, saying it makes so many things "better" and "playable" and "doable" just feels like people telling on themselves.
Like I'm sorry to show up and have a negative FF14 opinion (should have been expected from me) as usual but like. God. This sucks.
I keep feeling like this thing I really love is just continuously forced out of my hands by everyone and everything else and I get the idea of needing to let go, I just wish it didn't hurt to let go of a stupid fucking game.
I feel like that meme of the child who took the photos after having his pudding eaten and he's just so angry. Good for all of you that want this. Happy for you. Whatever.
I'm just so fucking mad lmao. I want to be happy because we're getting an Evangelion Alliance Raid series. Someone pointed out that some of the lines in the trailer are lines said by Ysayle (and I love Ysayle.) But we are LITERALLY back in Heavensward. And I know people are excited for that but like... As someone who was there, I feel like we're just bringing on all the good and bad that has come with being back in Heavensward and I'm just like... Not happy about that.
For fucks sake I need Maplestory Pserver devs to make a Stormblood-based Legacy server to play on because it's the only way I'm going to enjoy playing this game anymore.
ALSO WHO THE FUCK WANTED A BATTLE PASS FOR WEEKLIES? FUCK YOU!
Anyways sorry my site is just a blog now where I don't update the main pages even though I keep saying I will. I just... I am trying. I am struggling. I am crashing and burning.
Let's Talk About Ultimate
19 Apr, 2026
So, I've been meaning to get around to this for the last few days. But some other things had been preoccupying my mind. Well, now that I got all that off my chest though, it's time to finally talk about all this. Let's talk about the Patch 7.5 trailer in full. I'm sure that plenty of people are talking about it. After all, new story, new alliance raid, new other things. But I specifically want to talk about Ultimate because I... I still haven't read patch 7.3 and in all honesty I hate to say it, I'm just not interested in reading a lot of the stuff for ff14 outside of my ng+ that I need to get to at some point. One Piece Brainrot has taken hold again and I went back to Mabi so until I even like... IDK, finish writing the 3rd part of my NG+, I'm not going to be stacking more work on me. Besides this site is so half finished right now it's laughable. I'll work on it though, I promise!!!
Anyways here's the trailer:
Sorry to see all this and just start screaming about Kefka but like... KEFKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sure other people have a lot to be excited for. Like, sadly Limited Jobs are just not my thing. Never have been. I haven't really cared much about the crafted relic stages aside from like... yeah they're there I suppose I'll do them at some point. And I'm sorry to be the guy who says "I don't care about story right now" because I usually do but I refuse to comment further on something that I'm not really doing right now. I feel like it's not fair to complain about it. MSQ isn't something I like to tackle unless I am like prepared to reread it all in depth and ponder, and thats why I never really comment when I'm not paying attention past going "Oh it's fine I suppose" or "I disliked x part." IDK people who are into this game solely for lore can get like kinda uppity about criticisms of the lore of this game so I just back off, even if I do indeed like the lore and story of this game...
Still, I will be watching Kefka prog. I love the fact that this is the most hype I've felt for a trailer in a long time. The most hype trailer in my mind is still fucking 4.2's patch drop and wow what a coincidence...
It's so fitting that the other patch drop I thought was literally the most hype shit in existence I focused only on raid, I did not care about the story I only wanted to clown!!!!!!!
Oh my god it's just so good.
Like, I'm pretty sure somewhere on here I put my thoughts on FRU. If not, well, I'm just disappointed with the execution. It felt rushed and uninspired. And everyone kept arguing between whether or not it needed to be Shadowbringers Story Ultimate or if it needed to be Stormblood Story Ultimate. You cannot understand how fucking delighted I am to know that they chose neither and they gave people Kefka and his Warring Triad. This is what people want to do. Like yes sure there's always going to be people wanting ultimate Ascians or ultimate Garleans and like good for them and all but like everyone I hear that keeps bitching about them going out of order DOESN'T EVEN DO ULTIMATE so literally why do you guys care. This is so fucking hype. I want them to keep getting experimental with Ultimate. Because I think it's a literal tragedy that FRU seems so haphazard and rushed, to the point that nobody really talks about it. I wanted it to be great but it just... IDK I really dislike the fact that we didn't get a new final arena and that we didn't get a grand orchestral piece to top off the fight. I'm sorry to keep harping on it. The grand orchestral pieces add to the spectacle of Ultimate raiding and it's just a really really powerful emotion that they draw out. They have a sense of grandeur that I've never seen another set of raids in a game capture. So I'm excited for the team to show up and make something they're passionate about. And I know it'll be well recieved because anytime they let stuff bake in the oven long enough rather than pushing it out half completed, the people love it. It's why stuff like TEA & DSR are so well recieved, and why despite being the "lesser Ultimates" in people's eyes, people still love to do UCoB & UwU. TOP & FRU are from a really awkward period in the game where, despite its problems, yeah TOP holds up... but FRU is still, idk... I never see people talk about it. Which is sad. Lesbian Ultimate flop...
I really hope this is a step in the right direction with Ultimates again. I hope they do all their wacky crazy ideas that they'd love to do. People speculated a lot on the idea of Ivalice Ultimate & Nier Ultimate and I'm here like, yeah I don't care about Chaotic at all please give it to us in Ultimate form! Keep telling insane stories! I love the raids in this game!
Also I'm really excited for the last FF11 Raid. Shantotto fight!!!
Sorry, that's around 2 posts in a short amount of time. But I had to talk about it! I'mma see if I can finish up some other stuff.
Unhinged
14 Apr, 2026
I wanna write a topic about something that I heard that was particularly unhinged, but part of me is like "It is not worth it to get involved in this shit. Don't do it. Whatever you do don't do it. It's not like you have direct proof." So I'm just here kinda dwelling on it. Like, I'm not going to be the guy who picks a fight. Especially over a fictional character that I yes, indeed care about to a degree due to knowing similar trauma, I have no romantic desires towards. I don't really care what other people do, until it's stuff like this because it's so gross.
Like IDK I like being fairly private about Yume stuff and I just don't even like sharing my own stuff. I've seen how someone acted about an old character I shipped an OC with and that shit freaked me out enough. It didn't even occur to me that I had a Yume fixation until about like last month and I realized that I had been nursing those feelings for like 2 years. TWO WHOLE FUCKING YEARS.
IDK I'm keeping this vague cos like I said, this is just too crazy for me. But leaking stuff about your servers members to another person as an admin and apparently keeping detailed logs of it all over a fictional character and who gets to like him is pretty gross.
I'm uncertain how to end this. Look at this:
I'm sorry I have only negative things right now to talk about and not a lot of progress. My attention span is shot and I've had some other issues relating to being occupied so I haven't had a lot of time to sit down and actually work on my site, despite having goals. Time management is hard.
As good of a Friday as it gets.
03 Apr, 2026
I can't help but feel like I'm doing pretty bad at this webmaster stuff, as things continue to pile up and what not. Like for example: The 2 things I wanted to do this year I haven't even done yet and it's technically April now. APRIL!!!
Well, not that it matters. I need to spend less time at my desk and more time exercising. But my sleep schedule is pretty bad--I say having made an entire meal at midnight considering I ate barely anything. And then I followed it with a bowl of ice cream. Not even sure why I did that. I guess in my brain I felt a bit bad. I dunno why. I guess it could be a seasonal thing. I gusess I should move past it though and focus up a bit more. I need to make an exercise schedule probably. And also uh... I need to be more attentive to updating my site. Because like I've said, I've slacked so much. I have all these unfinished projects everywhere.
And also, I keep not updating the update log. I don't think it's been updated since October of last year. I suppose that's next on the chopping block.
I suppose that's all I really have to say for now. I'm still just suffering while I guess at Amiami's seamail dispatching. It's been so bad.
I guess for good news, I made a few graphics. On that topic though, if I put up some of my old signatures from forums under the graphics, would anyone want to see that? I have quite a few. I don't think I'll post them all, but I'll post my favorites maybe. I made a few, on Treehouse forums. It's been a bit quiet there. I think more people should join us lol.
Maybe at some point I'll finally check out Melonland...
Anyways, I keep thinking it's so weird that Easter is almost already here. Wow that came fast. Maybe I'll finally get around to my piles of work this weekend. I hope the weather is good, so I can take pictures without worry. Might be a bit hard now that I only have one part of my desk. I suppose I could add the other arm, but my room isn't that big lol. And there's still things I want to paint. Maybe after Easter, I can get that done.
I dunno, this entry is just me musing to myself.
Maybe I'll start putting more polls in my recent entries.
Oh, that reminds me, on the topic of polls (and an excuse to put one lol), I was going through my old art archives. I was thinking of adding a bunch of other sketches to the site. Should I do that? Maybe clean up some old concepts that I never finished? I dunno. I feel like looking through all my old art, I tried so hard to come up with a style that's "unique" to me, that I completely didn't focus on like, the more important stuff like learning to do poses and shading and what not. Or even well done coloring or lineart. Hahaha...
Also, I guess while I'm working on stuff, I'll fix all the things I've left rotting, unlike my claims last time.