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So like, for whatever reason, there seems to be this consensus in the 1P community that Sanji has no hobbies really because all he does is cook and apparently when cooking is your job, it' can't be your hobby. I dunno about that one though. I feel like when you're really in it and you enjoy cooking, it's more than just your job. I honestly think it's fair to say that like it is both his job and his hobby because like, those are two different aspects of cooking in a way. I feel like people who don't cook and haven't worked in that field get this kind of... mentality that like, it's only your job at that point. Like I dunno how to describe it. That and I've noticed a lot of negativity towards the idea of "your job and your hobby shouldn't overlap because you'll start to hate what you love" which isn't always true for some people. It really just... depends on the person. That and just, people forget that restaurants have menus. I know on the Merry and the Sunny they weren't exactly eating off of a menu or anything, but I imagine for the most part you're cooking within a set of general dishes that hit certain nutritional values & are easy to fall back on when in doubt. That's a bit different from cooking experimental dishes, which feels moreso where the "hobby" aspect would come in.

I dunno I'm probably just rambling. But it does come from experience from baking as a hobby and being one of the go to people in the family when it comes to baked goods. Like, following a recipe, sure. But trying to find your own way to perfect things to your own preference takes like, quite a bit of experimentation. And it's not always easy either. IDK I have a lot of relatives that used to run restaraunts too when they were younger or still alive. I've learned a lot about cooking and how to stick to recipes for the best and most consistent results and I know how experimentation on simple things can achieve a different result which is... y'know to be expected. But I don't think a lot of people really think about that.

Also there's a few times in just spreads where we see him reading about cooking and it's like, idk acquiring new techniques always kinda felt like it plays moreso into the hobby aspect of stuff. It goes back to the experimenting topic.

Slightly new topic but still related to hobbies though--Occlupanids. I don't think he'd have a lot, but on the odds that he ever picked up bread (assuming that they even have ties but like we're just going to pretend) I think he'd just keep them. Probably has a few assorted ones in a drawer. If anybody asks what they are, he just says they're his pets. I think Luffy, Usopp, and Chopper would probably give any they found over to him and fail to understand why he has them or what makes them pets. And I think Robin would be really intrigued by the topic as well. Silly nonsense, I know, but please consider hopping on the "Sanji definitely is raising a ton of occlupanids in one of the kitchen drawers and has named every single one of them" train. They're also all named after beautiful women he's encountered.

So like, I will just come up off the bat and say that I don't mind LuSan like at all. In fact, I would dare to say that it's my preferred ship. I don't think of it as overtly sexual or even too romantic, but I feel like there's a certain level of care that Luffy gives to Sanji that I don't think is really present with anyone else (I mean that primarily directed at Sanji.) I know some people will try to argue that LuSan shippers basically see them as the only relationship where he's given any love whatsoever and then try to list like, every other ship, and I feel like people are just mixing up platonic love with romantic love? Almost on purpose? I dunno, I've seen it get slander before and quite frankly, it's just people tearing the ship down because it's not ZoSan. Which is something I find annoying. You can ship ZoSan, I'm fine with that, but remember who showed up to crash Sanji's wedding? And threatened to starve himself without him? Yeah. Uh, stop pretending that didn't happen. I'm not saying you have to find this ship to be "cannon" or anything (Honestly I hate people's obsession with the idea that their ship needs to be "cannon" like who gives a fuck), but I need people to understand that like, it's not something people are just pulling out of their ass.

Forgive me for my take on this one. I don't see it as anything more than platonic. I know people will note that there's a large amount of preference given to Nami over any other girl, but also they're in the same crew. At times I feel like he shows Robin just as much love. If you wanna argue semantics, I suppose the bond with Nami could be stronger because of how much longer they've been together in this crew (As they're from the original 5 members.) And I could also imagine being there for the events of Arlong Park kinda boosting that bond because that's what truly gave Nami her freedom. But I just don't see it as romantic.

Something else I want to touch on here: I'm tired of people arguing that it's abusive on Nami's part. There's time's where she's on his ass and it's for good reason. I love Sanji dearly but dear god he does some stuff that isn't worth defending at all. I think this is moreso Toei's inclusion moreso than anything (They love slandering him LMAO), but like, don't quote me on that because I could be wrong I am slow at reading through manga. Some people are holding a gun to my head to catch up with the manga as well and I am ignoring it. That doesn't matter though. Anytime Nami has made her boundaries clear is something that should be respected and I'm tired of seeing her get called abusive for enforcing said boundaries. Shes. Not. Abusive.

Nami hate is banned on this website.

So I like, dread talking about this ship, especially with more... IDK, modern shippers? IDK. My stance on this ship is best summarized as "Its Very Fucking Complicated." And for good reason. There's just something about the way that other people ship it that I just do not vibe with whatsoever. And the way people act about it is even worse, like oh dear god. People be calling this and stuff like NaruSasu "The Ancient Fujoshi Texts" and stuff and like sure, I'm fine with that (Even though I don't really self identify with the term "Fujoshi"--No hate to people who do, I just get really tired of everyone's stance on the term flipflopping every 5 years as well as just the mere idea that shipping men together makes you "rotten" and "ruined for marriage." Reclaimed term, I know, but still... Old people in fandom stuff I suppose.) It's just that the way that people like it now vs the way that I used to see it portrayed back then is a bit... At odds.

Like, there's no way to say this that is nice or isn't possibly going to upset people. I hate Omegaverse. I'm not going to sit there and argue that it's absolutely 100% transphobic and that anyone who likes it is a problem. Like no, you do you, you won't hear that stuff from me. But as someone under the trans umbrella myself, I just do not like it. It gives me the ick. So many times I see ZoSan portrayed, it's almost always Omega stuff and it is always about Sanji being a mother figure in literally every way possible. It's a little weird. Why does it have to be him being an Alpha, instead of just a regular bottom? Can't he just be a transwoman if you're looking for him to clearly fill the role of a woman? Why does a lot of modern ZoSan get so rigidly gendered and fit him very rigidly into a tradwife role? Why am I experiencing misogyny aimed at a man? Like, there's so much levels to this that I'm just here like "Man this is deeply unpleasant. I do not like this." If you do, then you do you. I just don't want to see it.

Basically, for the most part, I like my ZoSan the way I like my hateships & rivalships. I want to see them clawing at eachother and biting at one another. I want it to be "icky" and "covered in grime" as someone once put it, which like, yeah sure. I basically don't like the sanitized stuff that's about domestic homelife where a man is clearly shoved into the role of a woman and is a wife in all but name and gender. If you wanna make them trans that's fine by me. Hell, do that. I wanna see them angrily scissor one another. That's hot. I just kinda hate the Omegaverse stuff. I dunno if I hate it more than the like hurt/comfort stuff. Like I get that it'll always be there in fandom and sanitized fluff is never ever going to be my cup of tea in a ship like this, but I don't really see it as bad as whatever is going on with Omegaverse fans and their weird ass portrayal of this ship.

Honestly, I don't even mind the fact that Sanji is the bottom in the relationship. Like that has never bothered me. But I also wanna say that I get a bit annoyed when he's treated as an "incapable delicate uke with plenty of anxiety issues that just needs to be treated tenderly and can never defend himself he needs his big strong boyfriend to defend him." We don't even like the same character at this point. I could understand the anxiety issues. Post WCi, I get it, that guys mental state is in the fucking GUTTER. But for the love of GOD I am so tired of this community treating people who aren't Zoro as super weak and incapable it's literally insane we're not even reading the same comic anymore like what the fuck are you all on about? Like, I hate powerscaling debates. I literally could not give a fuck about that. I do not care about the levels of e-peen someone gets because their blorbo is Zoro and he's stronger than Sanji most likely. Like, yeah, whatever. My issue is treating Sanji (and literally anyone else tbh) as incapable. Like, fuck off.

TL;DR: I am incredibly nitpicky on the portrayal of this ship and you will PROBABLY not agree with me and how I'm like "my way or the highway" with it. I just wanna see them hatefuck. Keep the piles of misogynistic views on Sanji and the mpreg as far away from me as possible though because I just do not vibe with that shit and I hate that it's what I primarily see people talking about if not the absolute ukefication of him and the stripping of his character to be nothing more than a bottom. And I just kinda hate that as well. IDK I hate the dilution of characters personalities to absolute nothing. If I wanted to see Sanji get watered down, OPLA is right there. We don't need to do it in fan content too.

"Will you shut up about how you like your ZoSan stuff yet?" NO. Okay maybe.

Also I want to say before anyone accuses me of it: No, I don't think that they totally "don't care" about one another. It's clear that they do. I just think that like, there's no way either of them are going to give an inch when showing that, so they will continue to butt heads for the love of the game. And quite honestly, that's like, the fun of the ship. Sorry if you disagree and want Soffboi fluff. You're free to enjoy that side of things, I totally don't mind. It's just like I said it's not for me.

"What about Sanzo?" I really do not care about the supposed difference between Zosan and Sanzo. Some people insist that the order of who's topping and who's bottoming really fucking matters, but in my honest opinion, the only way it changes the dynamic is in bed. It doesn't change the dynamic of their entire personhood and how they interact with one another. IDK maybe I just don't get it because I'm not a fujoshi. I can respect that some people are strict on their order for sex related stuff like yeah that's absolutely fine and I absolutely agree on the idea of prefering Sanji as the bottom. But I also just don't really think that "he can only be the bottom because of his size in comparison to Zoro." That's fucking stupid. That's not how shit works. The way people look and their outward stature and demeanor doesn't dictate what role they play in the bedroom oh my god. Anyways, I will always be a "you do you on your shipping preferences" type of person and if we can't see eye to eye that's fine. But I really do not care that much. This doesn't change anything about their main dynamic in my eyes. Sorry.

Apparently people are shipping this a bit lately and like good for them? IDK, I see it once again as primarily platonic and have no real thoughts on it, but I think the way these two interact is charming. Hell, I want to say that most interactions with Usopp just get shoved to the side and forgotten about by most people reading because idk, people just don't like Usopp. Y'all are weak. Either way generally decent ship, I have no qualms. You could put this on my plate and I'll eat it.

We are skipping to the other big one that people fight over because I am a glutton for punishment (and quite honestly after Usopp I pretty much just see everything the same "Platonic, Platonic, Platonic, Platonic. God are there even that many ships for him?")

This one's just a giant uuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh god it's just so fucking complicated. I suppose if I'm going to say anything, I don't mind the idea of Pudding's one-sided puppy love, baby's first crush on an older guy. That's fine. It's when people expect it to be a two way thing where I start lifting my eyebrow because this ship is already kinda... Not great considering the circumstances. But then like, it's not even told to us in actual canon that she's a 16 year old girl. It explains a lot of why she acts the way she does but like, idk, I don't think I can get behind the idea of a 16 year old girl being married to a 21 year old man. Even if royalty is fucking weird and it's an arranged wedding that goes uh... terribly, most of this I just don't like.

This entire thing was born from him being at his lowest trying to cope with the situation he was in and just find a way to be okay with it. Forget all the stuff where he was captured by his rather abusive father, given handcuffs that would blow his hands off which is a fate worse than death for a chef, and the fact that Pudding tried to kill him at the altar. And like, the abusive brothers. As someone once put it, the "GMO Mini-hitlers." Like they were making shit worse as well. And then Pudding just... acts like a bully 99% of the time. IDK how to put it but like most of the times she acts like a ghost pokemon playing pranks but the pranks aren't funny and I want her to stop.

I guess there's some nuance to it like just, she didn't deserve to be in her situation either and it's fucked up what her family has done to her and I get why she would grow attatched to the first person showing her kindness and I don't blame her for it. But I don't like it when people try to act like they're both lovey dovey towards one another because like, pretty sure the flirting stops pretty early on. If you wanna ship it okay fine whatever you do you, but I just... cannot. I cannot sit there and listen to people call a 16 year old girl Sanji's girlfriend/wife but at the same time knowing the fucking general age of his fans on birdsite, they're just projecting because they're the same age from what I've seen. And if they're not... well, you fooled me that's for sure.

Anyways I'd say that while I'm fine giving a little bit of grace related to the situation surrounding to the ship and I really hate immediate reactionaries calling him a pedophile for a situation he didn't willingly put himself in, I generally don't really like this ship. Unsure how I feel on Pudding as an entire character, but like, it's kind of hard to talk about her as a whole without touching on this ship because like, the entire nature of WCi being about a wedding and all.

Funny as fuck though that Luffy fucked up her wedding.

Not to be a hater, but I just don't see where this ship comes from. I feel like a majority of Law's chemistry with any member of the Straw Hats is like, with Luffy. Sorry LawSan people but I'm just confused. I'm not trashing on it, you do you. I just don't see it. I'm fine with it existing though.

Honestly just echo my thoughts from above. That's really all I feel towards this ship. Hell, I'll say I'm even more confused than the Law stuff because like, I can't help but feel like most of Law that we see is related to Luffy as well. And then uh... Yeah... It's another "I don't see it but I don't hate it's existence" ship for me. I just don't really understand. Maybe I'll flip my stance on either of these, who knows.

Also on the topic of marriage, I gotta talk about how I decided to show people I was serious about quitting Granblue Fantasy. I legit changed my star character from my Water Drang who's like maxed out on as much stuff as I can get him to be (minus EMP apparently because I'm fucking lazy) to this:

This is noteworthy because I never used to change Drang unless it was for GW reasons. Drang was my ride or die. He was my beautiful wife. I cared that man so much. Also if you're familiar with any GBF Twitter shenanigans yes I was the 300 dollar Drang guy. I wanted to scamcha for a chance at fire Drang and didn't have shit in my account and instead of spending 30 dollars I spent fucking 300 by accident and I've come to terms with the fact that I not only am never living that down. And then I pushed my beautiful wife aside for an EMP 2 unit that I decided to ring at random with one of the last 2 rings I have (because my ass is NOT playing these days you'll catch me here for collabs & free rolls but that's it) and then ontop of that I hid Zoro from the fucking character select and everything else on top of that. Only for people in another friend group to come and ask me why I married "Alt Rackam."

FUCKING TERRIBLE.

Anyways, perish in Silverwind, I guess. (Only made funnier by the fact that I don't even use him as my homescreen, it's currently Roy Mustang LMAO)

Yeah I have a Yume OC. I don't really know how to talk about her outside of just saying uhhhh I'd rather make her own page and put her there when I get around to finally putting my OCs on my site. It's in the "To Do" pile just like everything else. Anyways I dunno what anyone expects from me. I don't really talk about them too much, but I do have a decent amount of OCs. Maybe not the absolute most or anything, but I feel like having more than 5 is plenty. She's my first non-MMO OC in a long time.

Without going too much into her, I went with the name Clearwater Mika (I mean, water is kinda my thing). I have a rather elaborate backstory for her that I will, as I said, touch on later at the right time and place. Most of their relationship is pretty... Uninteresting I think lmao. I dunno, how do I really say it? Like, it's nothing special. I don't wanna say "typical hetslop" lmao. I feel like some people may take that the wrong way. But it's basically two traumatized as all hell people learning to navigate personal feelings for one another, and learning to make the right choices for their relationship and communicate and all that. A lot of... personal feelings and experiences went into my own character, and writing was moreso learning to come to terms with and cope with my own trauma. I think it was gonna be kinda a given that the core of their story together would be dealing with said trauma. I'm sure if you read my stances on a certain ship, you're probably like "ok so you don't like all the breakdown stuff with that ship but you like it with your own ship" and uh ok yeah I'm a hypocrite whatever. But I'm pretty sure that stuff is just bound to come out when you start unpacking your own issues I guess. IDK. It's a bunch of muddled emotions and a lot of the last year has been a bit of a wild ride for me, ontop of just childhood abuse and what not. It's something very personal and private and used to cope and I don't really like sharing a lot of it due to that. I think a lot of people would say "Your writing is beyond absolutely whack please consider learning how to read" or at least that's what my brain always tells me due to anxiety and how mean shonen fans can be. I know that's me catastrophising and I hope people on my website wouldn't be saying that but idk I live in fear. I've already been mocked relentlessly in the past for another Yumeship and IDK, I've been really protective of all my Yumeships due to that.

I don't have any art of them... Err... I'll work on that at some point.

Oh boy, I really didn't want to have to write this. But I think it's kind of my responsibility to write this. When it comes to other Yumes of characters I like, my general consensus is to basically give a thumbs up and go "Same hat? Same hat!" and just kind of move on. I don't... I dunno how to put this other than I'm not crazy about sharing, but I'll do it? Because I'm also an adult and I am well aware that any of my fictional Waifus have 5 million fans (Aside from Ysayle Dangoulain I'm her only fan I'M HER #1 I LIVE AT HER HOUSE) and I'm just one of many. I cannot bring myself to fight over a fictional character. I just... can't. If I feel that you're a person that makes me uncomfortable about how you like a character, I will probably silently block you. If you're like a certain Other-Perverted-Favorite-Character-of-Mine's Yume and you go around harassing people on Birdsite, then yeah. I'm more inclined to fight. But it's not because I think I own a character more than you. I just hate a brat. I'm also unfortunately always down to clown as well so like, idk. I'll own up to being a shit stirrer, but I'm not going to stir shit with someone in their own lane.

Basically, I'm very "I treat people how I want to be treated." I also just don't fight on this stuff. If it's talking about yume stuff specifically related to Sanji, I'm just like "cool we can talk about our shrines and art and stuff" and I'm like that's neat.

It's when we start getting into OC ships and headcanons and stuff that I get a bit... Unwilling.

From what I've learned from being on the outskirts of the Yume community for years and years from not being an open Yume, it's that Yumes are very possessive of their own work and what they may see as copying. Because of that, I don't really feel comfortable looking at other content by Sanji Yumes and I will block just out of the fear of my brain latching onto some minor detail, completely forgetting the source of said detail, then turning around and forgetfully and unknowingly incorporating it into my own work (This used to be pretty common practice in the early 2010's tumblr rp scene so forgive me for hanging onto old habits unintentionally). I want Mika to be a work solely of my own creation and I don't want input from people who aren't within my own inner circle. I don't want to have an accidental influence by someone else. We already have a berserk person from another community from a certain card series who sits there and says having even the ever so slightest similarity is copying her oc. Which is like, eyerollworthy. But I won't lie and say I've never had someone write something for a character I've roleplayed and I just kinda... idk, took their headcanons and absorbed it into my own in the past. IDK, I just don't wanna do that LMAO. Mostly because other yumes fucking scare me in how they react so I'm like... putting myself into my own quarantine box. Sorry if that's mean. Outside of my group of chill friends, I just get really afraid to interact with other yumes.

That and I will completely admit that sometimes I'm just not in the right mental headspace to deal with sharing. Some days it's fine, some days I'm having a fucking breakdown that's unrelated to it and the last thing I want to do is see my comfort character with someone else's oc. That's a me problem though. Like I realize the hypocrisy here of going "Other human beings? Okay fine I can get on board with us wanting to smooch the same anime boy. OCs though? Yeah maybe not." IDK. Maybe my thoughts on this will change later.

For the most part though uh, if you want to interact and say your own thoughts and have those conversations with me uh just give me a heads up sometime I suppose. I don't mind talking. The idea of sharing is very... I'd say it's selective for me. I was unsure if I wanted to put mirror sharing or not, and I'm going to say that like, if other people are open to it, I suppose. But I may get nervous and be like "I can't do this after all" and it's not a personal attack on anyone else it's just that idk, my depression and anxiety is really bad and there's been an agitator when it comes to it as well so like, it's not anyones fault and I'm really sorry if I do anything that upsets anyone. I am not like, trying to own him for myself or anything I am not that delusional. The earth has like what, 9 billion people for its population and 1P is the worlds most popular comic iirc. I am just trying to take care of my own mental health before Golden Bahamut comes in and flattens it further. And sometimes taking care of said mental health means "Maybe don't interact with things that are going to make you upset."

Although I will say like, I don't want to ever get into a yume pissing context especially when it comes to flexing. I've already been told by other that I flexed on them in a server back when I had uh... 3 figures. That's it. So uh "I have more x" or "I have more y" than you is just idk never welcome like ever. Flexing isn't really fun. Like yeah I guess I have a decently expensive shrine. But I don't expect people to have as much as me. I admit that I'm in a place of privelege and theres uh... well there's some lore to how it all happened anyways, but that type of stuff doesn't need to be aired here.

By decently expensive shrine, I mean:

Please understand I care him a lot but it is not a competition. What was it? I think it was said in an SBS or something that Sanji wants to belong to all the ladies of the sea. So we are all his wives... Even if you're not a woman, sorry, you're his wife.