Small sidenote

28 Sept, 2025

So, not a really long blog, but I want to say that I've managed to clean up all of my figures minus my 2 very large and very valuable ones: Megahouse Seto Kaiba & the replica Master Chief helmet from the Halo 3 Legendary Edition. I'm honestly dreading cleaning these because not only are they expensive and I'm constantly paranoid I'm going to mess them up, but they're just a pain in the ass to move around due to the size. Love them, but dear god why is it always the big things that are hard to clean? Like you'd think that as someone who owned that helmet since the Legendary Edition was released that I'd know how to clean it up but nope. I really don't know how to keep it looking perfect. And admittedly since it was so long ago, I got rid of things like the protective cover and the box and stuff. I honestly wish I hadn't done that but I was like, 17... And not the most savvy of collectors yet. Oops.

Either way someone wish me luck on cleaning these because I'm dreading it. I guess after that though I can get back to cleaning the rest of my room like rearranging the figures and putting everything else where it goes for now. But I also have more to clean. Like taking down a few posters, cleaning my entire keychain rack, and also vacuuming... which I should have maybe done first because the alllergies haven't gone away in whole yet. But at least they're far more manageable.

Don't Choke

26 Sept, 2025

So, today I realized that we plan to wrap up our prog around Oct. I'm unsure if they meant it as end before we go into Oct or if the end of Oct is going to be our very last. Either way, stuff like this always gets me nervous. I always feel like the guy who chokes under pressure because I start tunnel visioning. And when you have ADHD and anxiety, those things don't mix with raid. Still, either way, I guess if we end and we're not done, I have to go pug UCOB for a few totems. Probably just getting SAM & WHM if it comes down to that, but I'd like to have some of the other classes I have nothing for. I think that means stuff like PLD, RDM, MNK is mostly what I'm missing when it comes to stuff that could be filled in by a lv 70 Ult. I kinda want GNB & SGE to have weaps at some point, but unless they go back and old add totems, I gotta go finally prog the lv 90 stuff (Well, I know GNB has TEA and I could go pug that maybe. But I'd have to relearn. It's been a while.)

Really, I'm surprised that these are the only ulti weaps I have:

Actually, my last UWU weapon isn't on me, because I think its in my 3rd retainer that I haven't paid for in like a year or more. But it's another WHM one because I want every WHM ulti weapon. I also have double on DRK. UCOB would be doubles for me again though.

Nerves aside, I found myself deciding on the idea of possibly doing a new layout for Halloween but then feeling like it'd take way too long to get it up, and I'd ideally like to have it up by the 4th-6th as well as a lengthy article. And if you know anything about my interest and those dates, you can immediately tell what it'd be themed for. Oops. I might just settle for making the layout and seeing how much I can get done, but I don't feel like doing anything related to coding tonight. So instead, I plan to start something else.

Yeah, I plan on finally starting my replay of the MSQ. I'm going to be subbed until end of OCT at this rate, so I might as well get that done. So, expect to see a new page regarding that at some point.

It's been a long time since I seriously sat down and experienced XIV as a story outside of the expansion packs & patches. I think now of all times, considering I won't exactly be active for a while, is the best time to go back and just play it all. I originally considered fantasia-ing to my original character's design and using that outfit, but then I knew I'd want to fantasia back for whatever odd glam I decided I wanted. So I went against that and went "Nah, we'll continue to use the pink catgirl." So pink catgirl it is.

Anyways, here's to seeing if the job I'm on can cheat where our story starts. Because I kind of want to do the Limsa route a bit more this time, but whatever.

Edit: The answer is "no you can't pick it based on your job."

Exhausting

22 Sept, 2025

I really wish I would have gotten those glass doors for the Billy Bookshelf for my birthday instead of spending more of my money on anime figures. Why? Because having to sit here and wash each and every single one of them is exhausting. I have somewhere between 140-150 figures (including the ones I plan to sell, ones that aren't on MFC, etc) and it's kinda exhausting to sit here and wash every single one of them. I realize I'm doing this the lazy way by just soaking them in a bath of room temperature soapy water, then another bath of room temperature regular water and letting them air dry because I don't really have a way to mass dry them. But it is very tiring nonetheless.

Do yourself a favor, if you plan on getting into collecting: Buy a cabinet with glass doors. Even if it's only glass from one side, it'll save you the pain in case you ever end up allergic to pet dander.

Anyways out of my current 140 figures I've managed to finish cleaning... 18 of them. At least the Tales of figures are done now. But over 2 days I only managed this much? I guess I'll try to aim to clean most of the nendoroids that remain after I sleep. I'll also see about putting up some more art as well.

Challenge

20 Sept, 2025

Wow, I feel like I've been blogging a lot. Well, I suppose considering I'm stuck inside due to getting better, it's only natural. I haven't fixed my sleep schedule yet, and it feels bad. So I'm going to try to do that tonight and not stay up until uh... 9 to 10 am. I'll even eat less if it means sleeping at a decent time.

That aside, I decided that since I had a goal for the rest of this year with my site, that I kind of wanted to make another goal. So far, I think I've done... Okayish at hitting most of my goals. I did several things. Like I made my own graphics stuff, I got most of the pages running and working as best as I can. It's also organized into directories, I can link within my own iframes, the CSS is mostly good, the blog portion runs well enough, and most of my pages are pretty done aside from starting new projects and adding new entries? IDK, pretty much everything here is going along pretty well.

I guess that's kinda why my next goals are to just add more content. I started working on my shrine, and sure, I have a few more things I can organize and make, a lot of it is also just dependent on me going through and organizing said content, making some art, taking pictures, etc. Stuff I can't really do right now I suppose, because I have my hands full with physical cleaning.

I was thinking since I was finally quitting XIV soonish, I'll have a lot more free time to play games of my choosing. Maybe it's finally time to tackle my backlog. I think that'd be unique and something worth looking into. I have so many games that I've been meaning to play and I've put off because of playing XIV.

I guess for now, it's a combo of the anime & gaming backlogs, as well as the site content as well. It's probably enough to keep me busy for a while, and I'll probably write a fair share of articles on what I'm playing as well. After all, I guess that's kind of the point of this site.

I think the hardest hurdle will be finishing the large amount of JRPGs & VNs I plan to play at some point though. They're what always makes a backlog feel so heavy. I did finally get around to picking up DDLC as the first thing I wanted to tick off my playlog, but I won't lie, it made me just kind of want more. I might go and poke around more with the game, see if there's anything different to be experienced if you try different things with the initial route considering trying to do all the routes on the first try feels like it just wasn't meant to happen. I know some people don't really like DDLC due to how it satirizes VNs, but I don't think it's as bad as people make it out to be.

Still, at some point I'll get around to everything, so for now, I'll just take things slowly and chip away at the work I'm doing. Maybe one day I'll have a more interesting media section for people to read through lol.

Oh, and we're at nearly 99k views and 156 followers. The number has been fluctuating a bit lately with followers, but I hope when everything goes up, you'll be able to enjoy my brief questionaire thing.

Taking Accountability With Hoarding

17 Sept, 2025

It's kind of weird. I've been stuck inside for most of this month as well, my sleep schedule thoroughly destroyed by a combination of medicine and it just being flipped on it's head due to all the allergies, and the need to deep clean my room which has been quite the undertaking. But while I've been cleaning literally everything I have, it's been making me really take into consideration how much I have. While I was well aware of having a lot of goods due to the fact that I tend to build Oshi shrines and what not, and I tried to get more intentional about what I was keeping, nothing really prepared me for having to clean the entire room when it came to pet hair & dander.

But that also put so much more into perspective. I've been trying to take a lot more accountability with what I buy, buying intentionally, and what not, and so I went to go get rid of some things that I just... never really use. And when I went to get rid of stuff, for some reason my brain was so hesitant to touch certain kinds of items. Those being, well, anime merch.

Like, I don't know why when I see even a Pokemon plush that is ancient and has served its purpose that it just hesitates to go "Yeah well, I've had this long enough, it's time to go." Or even just "This has been in my stuff for so long, and yet I pay no attention to it, so I don't know why I want to keep it." Like, it's actually insane. I had a roll of just old posters that I found myself making every excuse to keep even though I don't display them. Or several old plushes that, while yeah sure they have tons of memories, but my bed is just overflowing with these things. Like I get it, I've had moments where I give up something vintage and I'm kicking myself later over doing that. But also at some point you just gotta let go. Like why is it easy for me to purge a stack of CDs that I know I'll never listen to, but getting rid of a Pikachu Christmas mug & shirt set that I barely ever touched is so hard.

Needless to say, I went through things and finally found myself tossing what I just don't care for into donation bins. And it's kinda freeing. Old anime CDs I just haven't listened to in 10+ years, video game soundtracks that I rarely bother with. Plushes that I'm sure someone else could enjoy. Containers that are cute, but serve no real purpose. Cords that go to nothing. Posters that haven't seen walls in 5+ years. Getting rid of all of it is kind of... cathartic. Maybe I'll do that with some of the itabag goods I have sitting around that can't be displayed as well. God knows I've tried to sell them at some point. But I dunno, getting my brain to realize it's time to let go is refreshing.

Needless to say, I'm also going to finally let go of some of my figures as well. Nothing special, just prizes, but having several that I know I've tried to sell in the past that don't really fit in with the rest of my collection that still just... don't fit in... Well, IDK what to do with them at this point.

Luckily the local place that we donate to is pretty good at putting things at low prices, and I've gotten a few good deals there (Notably another CD rack), so I don't feel bad donating anime goods. I might donate some art supplies as well that I have that are decent enough condition, but I just don't use too much.

I think the thing that upsets me most though while cleaning is the fact that I managed to lose something though. Hopefully it'll turn up soon.

For now though, I think I should get back to cleaning. I still have to dust the entirety of my desk, my bookshelf, and my dresser. But the clothes, the blankets, most of the plush dolls, and the media shelf are all done. So my next goal is to tackle the consoles, my PC & monitor, my makeup & nail polish, the other half of my CDs, art supplies, and then... the figures. Leaving stuff on the wall for the end because boy uh... I have a lot of stuff.

I did want to follow up on my project pan goals and say that I managed to go down to just 2 body sprays and 1 is half gone. I also have given out several gifts that I just didn't use to people who will use them for sure. I've also used up several glosses, balms, and lipsticks so it feels nice to have a lot less. A lot of perfumes are also half used as well so uh, I suppose we're getting there.

I also haven't really bought much of anything the last 2 months that weren't related to preorders (and probably due to the fact that I haven't really left the house due to the allergies), but that's a good thing as well.

I need to go back on a diet though. I think doing nothing but being practically bedridden all day caused me to gain quite a bit.

Anyways, since we're halfway through September and I'm having to do this overhaul of my room kinda by force, you'll probably all see how much my room has changed for the next room tour. At the current moment aside from wanting to do changes to the way my furniture looks, there probably won't be too much added. Really just paint and some doors for my bookshelf. I don't think it's anywhere near minimalism, like my friend said my room's gonna end up looking like, but it'll probably be less overall. Or more organized and put away due to the reorganizing of several things. Especially now that I have way more space to store stuff.

But also I really hope I find my 3rd BEWD Cinamoroll plush because IDK how it got lost...

Refusal

12 Sept, 2025

Normally right about now I'd be sitting here typing an essay about how over the last few days I've needed to go into cleaning overdrive and get everything I can dusted, cleaned, and free of dog hair because I finally found out about what my respiratory issues are. Unfortunately they were caused by my dog, and I already had minor (but manageable) pet dander & pollen allergies, but the dog sleeping in my room kicked them into overdrive. Very sad for Felix that he doesn't get to hang out in here with me, and I didn't necessarily mind having him in my room. But unfortunately not only is my family being very ridiculous about the idea of the dog moving back into my room 3 days later because I'm still coughing even though I'm feeling way better. But they're already like "Yeah get rid of your anime stuff I think it's actually causing that" and their reasoning is just racism. Blah blah "comes from China" blah blah blah. My response is a solid no. But that's not even what's irritating me right now.

What's irritating me is seeing a bunch of people cry over a fucking nazi die. Fuck that guy. I don't give a fuck about him. He got what was so clearly coming to him. I don't care that he has a family. I don't care that he was executed. The only people I feel bad for are unsuspecting people who had to see it happen and will be traumatized by that, assuming they're not his stupid supporters and were just people minding their own damn business. RIP BOZO YOU WON'T BE MISSED.

Also stop expecting people to "be more human" and "show empathy." No. Fuck you. Go show some empathy to the people in Gaza. Go care about literally ANYTHING ELSE, but at the very least, don't go around lecturing others on how to feel. I owe nobody nothing. I don't care how "impolite" and "immature" it makes me look. I do not give a fuck about nazis. Especially not nazis who treat lives much like mine like they're worthless. Instead of crying over nazis, cry about the lives of Latino people being ruined by ICE breaking up families. Cry about the fact that tons upon tons of Black lives are snuffed out due to police violence or they're tossed into prison to be treated as slaves for any minor crime white pigs can think up. Cry about the Trans lives that are constantly cut short due to bullying, being forced back into the closet, or just straight up being snuffed out on a whim.

There are so many actual things to cry about these days that are worth shedding tears for. Don't let it be a fucking nazi. Do better.

Improvement

04 Sept, 2025

I won't lie, finding time to sit down and work on my site has been difficult considering illness. Especially when you realize that it might not just be a simple "get over it type of illness" but something a bit different all together. I was finally able to get things sorted out and get an appointment though which makes me happy, because I didn't really have family willing to help me get to an actual hospital. Soooooo I guess I just have to wait another few days. At the very least, despite my sleep schedule being super atrocious right now, I'm able to sleep a lot more soundly. I've also been sleeping a lot. And not doing stuff. Even things I have to do daily around the house can be a bit taxing, because I never know what's going to agitate this and cause a huge coughing fit. But I also realized that whatever I have isn't contagious to those around me. But I won't lie and say it's not impacting my quality of life. I haven't been able to exercise or do stuff outside. I feel like I'm failing to take care of the dog because they kinda pushed it onto the sick person who doesn't know if this is all allergies. I can't really clean a lot either, and I won't lie I'm incredibly afraid of agitating stuff further. So I just feel like I'm stuck in filth. And it's not fun. Every time I start feeling better, it's a bit nauseating when too much talking leads to huge coughing fits. I want to talk to my friends, I want to see my family, I want to go out in the sun, I want to exercise, I want to be able to play with my dog, and I mostly just want to clean and vacuum my room without feeling like I'm going to collapse from kicking up dust.

Basically what I feel like is that I'm doing a lot of laying in bed and a lot of sitting at my desk. But without the fun parts of being able to do things like partake in raid, write new reviews, take a ton of pictures and set things up, or even just play games without the weight of just knowing I'm going to errupt into a coughing fit, even sometimes from anxiety.

But, on the bright side, I've improved a bit on my art. (I think)

It probably doesn't seem like that because a majority of what I draw is like shitposts from discord convos using my mouse but I think I've definitely improved to some degree probably?

Here's a Bakura, since it was recently Bakura's birthday. A lot of times I've gone to actually color pictures of him, I never remember to like actually use anything past basic shading. Sometimes I color the lineart. Sometimes I don't. If there's anything I am with my art, it's inconsistent. The only thing I think I'm okay with is drawing exaggerated hair. I won't lie though, if there's something I would criticize on this piece, it's the face proportions in comparison to the body. I think it looks awkward but like I only noticed that after a day or two of sleeping on it. I suppose I'll draw again or maybe just upscale his head slightly. It makes it look a bit uncanny but like IDK I guess not every piece can be a winner.

Honestly I kinda drew him because I wanted to use the same technique as that Kaiba piece I drew n just idk threw proportions to the damn wind LMAO. Speaking of though...

Decided to be not lazy (Says guy who did not draw arms on Kaiba). Finally colored this Kaiba that I drew on my birthday. At first I said "No I like the simplicity of it" and I still do but like also IDK it looks fine enough colored. I guess it's because I'm generally pleased with this pic. If there's anything I learned from these 2 pieces and drawing in this particular style rather than one of the other ones I tend to draw in, it's the fact that I realized that for lineart, I much more prefer to just sketch and start cleaning that up rather than making a new lineart layer. Sure it's messier, and it requires more cleanup than the others would take, but I think it lends more to my style. Like, I'm sure if you look, unless I'm doing super ultra lineless art, none of my stuff is really all that clean. Makes me wanna go and fix some older pieces with this coloring and method just to see how they turn out. But it also makes me wanna go check it out in comparison to SAI because I've been drawing with CSP becaue in my crash, I lost my SAI info. If I was in a better place financially I'd just buy another license on the spot but I'm gonna put that off for now.

Slightly older. Coloring practice. I didn't finish him but it's whatever because I was being lazy and the main point was to mess around with some colors rather than work on a finished product. Sometimes it's not about how finished a piece is but how much you learn from messing around, I suppose.

To be honest, I kinda just drew this one at random because I felt like it. Shadows are hard.

This one was a commission based on a scribble. His shirts kinda messed up and his hand's a bit awkward but like IDK what to really say here. Give him 20 dollars. Or give me 20 dollars and I'll draw you a picture of a character asking for 20 dollars. It will be worth your while because you get art of character, I get to go to hospital and pay off whatever horrible tab they ask of me. (I am joking I don't think I'm up to commissions right now and outside of friends asking for stuff, I really don't want to start a backlog)

Anyways what if I said it was shitpost time? Because it's shitpost time.

He eat the spaghetti.

I don't remember the context of it but I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that Ame & Kangel is way too fucking expensive on the aftermarket.

I have very normal feelings about Mr Vinsmoke Sanji. One might even say it's Sanjover for me...

BALD.

Honestly me next Tuesday. So I have to prog super hard on Friday!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!

Me and a friend have a very dumb AU related to YGO that's almost completely a fusion of the abridged series, that 70's show, and 2000's era American Highschool life and it's really really dumb, especially when we factor in things that happened and we just start going off on a tangent due to that. I can't even begin to start on where this image came from because it's so specific to a friend chat but my attempt to describe it would be that at some point Tristan made a shirt of himself with his picture on it and it just kinda was meant for him and I suppose it went viral among the school to the point it was sold in local shops and literally everyone just has it. That and Seto just kind of goes to school in pajamas half the time and this is one of the many pajama shirts he owns even though he can't stand Tristan (who is in the front seat of Joey's truck but not pictured in this setting) and he really only keeps the shirts because Mokuba bought him them. Also Duke has a crippling addiction to Dr Pepper and knows exactly how to kick the vending machine at school to get free Dr Peppers out. But for some reason only he's able to manage to do this.

Anyways Seto is the #1 passenger princess and constantly demands Joey to drive them to mcdonalds for his ygo happy meal toys and lets everyone else eat the food and order what they want because all he wants is the damn toys (Honestly he'd probably die from eating Mcdonalds anyways because he's a bit of a drama queen.) (Also yes I'm aware that the Mcdonalds HKxYGO collab was last year for the US and wouldn't be taking place but it's an AU we write the rules.)

Also every day without fail that poor Red-eyes doll is getting abused by Joey throwing his stuff in his truck however he pleases but like 2 minutes into any ride, Seto is making sure it is brushed off, taken care of, and tucked in. Duke sometimes helps.

Same AU but I don't even remember the scenario for this, I just remember the conversation had something to do with drawing Steelix from memory and something about "Do you think Kaiba would have that Onix statue by Kotobukiya" and it got turned into Steelix and for some reason it has a lamp.

Also yes he's playing the bad mushroom game. What else was there to play in like 2005?

I don't remember what the cans are supposed to be. Something like White Monster probably.

One day I'll actually go in depth about this dumb little AU because it is kind of funny but I want to draw out character sheets at some point because I think their hyper specific 2000s era clothing that American teenagers would be wearing in highschool would be kinda fun to draw.

More AU stuff, but honestly based on a stupid thing said in DMs because I was being stupid one night. That and sometimes stupid stuff between us gets said and I just decided on a whim that stupid stuff she says is said by Yami Bakura meanwhile stupid stuff I say is by Malik who is just... One of the biggest menaces in this AU because he's just there to piss everyone off. And look pretty while he does it.

Malik will absolutely join a forum just to start fights with you about your favorite media franchise which he bingewatched in a matter of nights and has 500 critiques about which are all well worded. I think after this AU he graduates to become a well renown film critic or something like that. Dropped out of college though because he just doesn't care. He became known through his youtube page where he goes on media rants.

Minecraft stuff between me & a friend as well. I... misplaced a cake and it was floating so I was forced to eat it all and I was like "I think Atem would be having a bad time." Yes my skin is Atem. Yes you'll probably see pictures when I finally get around to finishing a Minecraft page I've had in the works for a while now. But I'll do that later.

More Minecraft stuff. TFW you travel 1k blocks from home because you're bad at doing anything other than building in minecraft and you bring the wrong item!

Anyways that's the end of my article aside from Seto Kaiba bullying Halo Two into drawing better (because that's how I feel sometimes lol). So I guess I better start drawing... Though I really want to play minecraft right now. Anyways at some point I'm going to fix that top Bakura drawing's proportions because like it is bugging me and I did a mockup and it looks way better fixed but I'll do that later. You'll notice it change when I do stuff like resize all these pictures and put them in my gallery which still is lacking commentary in some places. God I swear I'll get to that at some point. For now though, uhhhh, I yearn for the mines at 4 am.

I guess look forward to some other things getting cleaned up around here soon, hopefully. I thought August would be more productive but I honestly meant to finish this article like 6 hours ago and it's due to exhaustion. I'll resize all these pictures later lmao.