Rambling

28 Feb, 2025

So, today was Pokemon day. Or well, yesterday, technically. Honestly when I got up, my goal was to kinda come home and write an entire blog around the original Gen 1 Pokemon games. But then I realized that I had no screencaps of my own that were just regularly available to me, on top of just being dead tired. So I slept.

Anyways, that's an awkward start to a blog, I suppose. But I guess this entire blog is awkward. It's more of me just rambling about the various things that I wanted to follow up on. I guess blogs like this aren't bad. And also it helps me communicate with people I suppose? Uh whatever, it's just me getting things off my chest.

I guess most of the reason I wanted to talk wasn't just because it feels like I'm no longer sick, but I finally went to the doctor's today to check back in with some tests. I didn't really talk about it outside of another journal but very briefly. Hell, I think it's the one where I said I had gotten sick, now that I think on it.

Either way uh good news. I don't have breast cancer. They have to keep an eye on it because it runs in my family rather heavily on my mom's side, and I should probably call my grandma on my dad's side up and see stuff related to all of that at some point. But for now, it's nothing.

Kinda hoping I can have a free excuse to get a masectomy though. Because I really don't want to have breasts to begin with.

Moving on from cancer, I guess the only thing I have to comment on is when I said I'd be aiming to do project pan and other stuff related to it. Which, I did get quite a few things used up so far. It's nothing spectacular, as it's mostly facial lotion, cleansers, and just general shower stuff. But hey, I also haven't bought too many things either. So far the only impulse buys I've had were clay, origami paper, alcohol markers at a very good price, and a small sketchbook. Which I promptly decided to use. I figured if it's enough to get me drawing stuff and using what I have rather than scolding myself for not using the bullet journal for yet another year in a row (because I'm bad with Bullet Journals and I don't know why I continuously do this to myself), I can at least have an art journal that I draw in on a whim. Because that will actually get used.

I've been good on not picking up any spare anime merch that I didn't explicitly preorder so far though. But I did consider buying a new plush I wanted, but I've held off on it so far, because I really want to get my preorders out of the way before doing anything new.

Also have you ever just had something trigger the weirdest memory? My grandma got a bunch of samples from Ulta and handed them to me. So I messed around with the perfumes. And one of them triggered rather vivid memories of my first playthrough of .hack//G.U., specifically vol 2. And that was way back in 2006. Dunno why, because apparently this scent came out in 2012. But there was probably something similar, considering it's a Lancome sent.

Maybe at some point I'll talk about .hack//. I've seen a few sites on Neocities have stuff for .hack// floating around, and quite honestly, I was excited to see it. .hack// feels like such a forgotten series, so I'm always happy to see people with .hack// mentioned as one of their interest. It's just another to file under my media logs.

I guess on the topic of media logs though, I wanted to bring this up. So one of the major goals of this site was to have a lot of my thoughts on media I've consumed here, rather than repeatedly relying on anime tracking sites to have my opinions on stuff. Mostly because I greatly dislike those kinds of sites. But I realized while looking through stuff like my MAL & my Anilist accounts: It doesn't matter how many of these kinds of accounts I make, talking about literally every piece of media I've ever consumed is quite hard. It might actually be a good idea for me to sit down and just keep logs on the ones that stuck out to me enough to talk about, and then just do the rest as a bit of a rapidfire entries list. For example, since the Pokemon day thing came up and what not and I want to keep on theme: Talking about each individual Pokemon series separately doesn't sound too hard, but I don't think I could imagine ever talking about every special separately, every movie, etc. There's simply so much. Hell, unpopular opinion maybe, but most of the movies are kind of forgetable. While thinking about this stuff, I found myself realizing that if I wanted to indeed talk about every piece of media I've consumed, I'd be here forever, just talking about anime. And I guess on an anime themed blog, that's not a bad thing. But eventually it'll probably discourage me from watching more and feeling more and more behind on site work, because y'know... sometimes your brain will tell you weird stuff like how you have to work on your blog or you're being unproductive? And I just don't want that. So maybe at some point I'll just do a huge rapidfire list after I talk about some other stuff that I do want to mention on it's own.

Dunno why I'm here acting like I need the approval of people considering that like, it's my blog and I get to decide the content. It's not like I'm monetized or anything.

Uhhh other than that, I'll probably go back to my usual work of working through all the graphics stuff, toybox stuff, etc. Maybe play some Mabi later today, after I clean. Slowly working through all that stuff has been a bit cathartic, because I can do it here and there and finally put it up when I'm satisfied. But also let's be real here, considering how much I change stuff on this site, I probably come off as never satisfied. Oh well.

Anyways, it's nearly 4, and I don't want my dog to start stirring, so I might just start heading to bed.

I'll probably put up some more graphics for everyone later, after I rename quite a few files.

Exploring

23 Feb, 2025

I keep telling myself that my illness is getting better, only to realize that it's coming and going. Like on one hand, it's not the absolute worst. I did get a lot of stuff out of my chest. On the other hand, every time I sleep it all accumulates in my chest so I can't rest super well without feeling like absolute death for a while because I wake up every hour it feels like because I can hear the dog roaming around because he wants to go out, and then it's just me coughing... I mean I guess it's just average sick person experience. I don't know. It'll pass. I just want it to pass sooner.

Either way, enough about sick people stuff.

Over the last few days I've been feeling a little burnt out due to trying to, idk, force activity? So I've been taking the time to actually explore the web and look around a bit. I guess I'll post some of my finds.

The first place I came across was a little site named Eve's Yugioh Page. Apparently one of the last times this place was updated was in 2010. I ended up finding it through the Kaiba fanlisting, because I was beyond curious to see if any other sites on there were still up. For some reason, I worked from the bottom up, and this was really the only other one I saw working. Either way, it definitely feels like a time capsule. I just wish the images were all still working. A few here and there did, but for the most part, it seemed like quite a few were just missing. It also made me realize that Angelfire is still online. Which leads me to my next part

Angelfire is still online. I won't lie, I thought it was gone. Back in 2003, I remember making my very first site on angelfire and using their webshell to edit it. I don't remember what it was about, but I'm going to assume something like Inuyasha or Kingdom Hearts. And by that I mean I placed a bunch of images on it and called it a day.

Either way, the thing I really wanted to call attention to was the fact that I found their page relating to their hosting plans. Loving the disk space plans for free websites. If their free sign ups were still open to this day, you could get an account with a generous 20mb of space. I can't help but wonder how much of my own site could fit in 20mb of space. I wish the free sign up was still open due to wanting to test that out.

Moving on, I went kind of down a rabbit hole. At first, a friend linked the Ukagaka English Wiki which lead me to GHOST TOWN. Ukagaka are pretty neat. They're little desktop pets with varying functions. I found myself on the hunt for stuff that interested me, but really didn't see anything that stood out in particular. I saw someone's stuff say that they had a Mokey Mokey ghost, but failed to find a picture of it posted on their site. Oh well.

I also saw someone say that they made a Kisara shell. I wanted to really see it, but it seems like all the downloads on their blog no longer work. How sad.

It did lead me to the Yugioh Sensaku. I wish I could really describe what these are past mini search engines based around a series and compiling websites with content related to either certain characters, ships, etc. A long time ago, these used to be the norm if you wanted to find other sites for any given thing. I don't remember if they were always called Sensaku, but considering how Sensaku can mean "digging," I think it was common. I don't remember, but looking around on google wasn't exactly helpful these days because google will feed you a bunch of bullshit nonsense before anything helpful. That and most of the places I learned about this stuff was ancient 4chan threads in the mid to late 00s. I figure at this point it's like some form of lost knowledge that people just don't talk about or remember. That, and a lot of these things are just straight up closed. I feel like Pixiv essentially aided in why most of this stuff is gone, because it became the big art hub. But even Pixiv has a lot of users that just deactivate and what not. Really sad.

I did also find Gameha.com which is still up and running with illustration site links, but a lot of sites are gone, and what remains seems to be just barely functioning. I did see Imaginary Rabbit while going through Gameha's Yugioh index, but realized this person does primarily MHY fanart, and turned back.

While going to 曖昧me under the Pokemon directory, I found quite a few more Pokemon searches. However they are all gone. But the Touken Ranbu Search is still up.

Other than that, I ended up thinking about Shimeji-ee again. I remembered having a lot of them that I downloaded from Pixiv. However, when I went to go see if I could find some of the ones I previously had, a lot of them were gone. For those who don't know, Shimeji-ee is a desktop pet. It used to be made by a completely different site, but that site is now gone. So now people just use Kilkakon's Shimeji-ee Updates as a way to keep it alive. I went looking at the deviantart group as a way to find anything interesting, but once again I found nothing that spoke to me. So I went to the same place I used to get them: Pixiv.

I won't lie, browsing Pixiv not logged in because I was too lazy to go find my password feels a little weird. Like, there's only 10 pages displayed to me and that's awkward. So I guess at some point I'm going to have to go track down my information and stuff. I'm probably overdue for a password reset anyways. Still, despite there being only 10 pages, I found a few cute Shimeji. Here's a few, though keep in mind that I didn't download them to test if they work.

Honestly despite liking some of them, it did make me realize that maybe what I want to do is just customize and draw my own stuff and make it myself to get what I want. But I don't want to worry about that right now, so I just won't.

Basically, I have enough on my hands and I don't need to add more projects. Either way, I should get back to what I was doing, which was making a blog based around Base Set 2, but the entire thing has me stumped on what to say. It's like half typed, but it just feels lacking so far.

Maybe that's a sign to finally eat today, now that it's 9 pm.

Sorry to put out a very stream of conscious type blog rather than working on all the things I need to work on. I'm a bit stumped lately when it comes to finding sources because I feel like google image search used to be good and now I can't seem to find anything. Makes me worried about how many sources are slowly disappearing and how hard it's going to be to track down certain stuff. Are there any other good reverse image searches? Saucenao takes forever to ping but it's honestly more for anime than anything. I just kind of want to get things like the links to my Toybox stuff kind of sorted already. And if it ends up with me deleting the toybox because I'm not satisfied not being able to find stuff, oh well, I guess. In the meantime, I need to go get that graphics resource masterlist done and out of the way, as well as sorting everything, deleting the tons of dupes that photobucket dumped on me, and posting the figure review that I keep putting off.

Uhhh Burger time first though, bye.

Sickness

21 Feb, 2025

Remember back on monday when I wrote a post and went "Wow what a rough week"? Yeah well, it got worse. I'm sure you could already get that figured out by the title of this article that I got sick off of whatever the hell my Grandma got from going to Vegas. I'm assuming it's the flu? I mean, I don't know what else it could be. Either way, I've spent the last 2 or so days flat on my ass laying in bed, only to crawl out of said bed and sit on the pc for as long as I can without succumbing to the feverish feeling

I won't lie, it feels pretty gross.

Anyways I want to change topics because I do have some sort of positive news. So, on one hand, I think I've recovered as much of my graphics I could have possibly recovered so far. On one hand, some of it has already been downloaded. Other stuff needs to be properly downloaded because some sites won't let you download in bulk. And the rest just needs to be double checked. But I did stumble onto some sort of mystery of my own.

So for a while when I was a teen, I kind of didn't really keep track of all my emails. I would basically go "new name new me" and start over. I'll talk about that later, when I'm feeling much better and not about to go to sleep. Either way, I've lost a lot of stuff over time due to multiple pc crashes and loss of accounts as well as just deciding to blank all my stuff out and go MIA on a lot of places because I got tired of people.

Needless to say, this means I have a ton of abandoned accounts out there that I probably don't have access to any longer. How does this loop into the graphics recovery? Easy. While going to download one of my Photobucket's photo archives, I noticed the fact that I had multiple names tied to a blog of mine. There was a total of 2. So I was like "Okay, easy enough, I'll go check if it's my other email and go download the archive on that email."

So I go to do that and I'm given a zip folder with all my old graphics and... It's a completely different set of graphics.

So not only do I have to go double check a bunch of stuff to make sure I've backed up everything, but now I also need to go track down a 3rd account and figure out that email. Uh, well I guess on the bright side, I'm pretty sure I have a list of old yahoo logins that were used to make Maplestory mules. Guess at some point I'll go check on those.

Either way, I have started to slowly work on compiling everything graphics wise. I did get one premade done, based off a really old layout I found stashed in my stuff. I'm aiming to get a few more of them done before sticking up that page. I guess other than that, I'm going to go back to doing a few media log style blogs, because going through my old graphics definitely made me nostalgic for a few things. So I guess while I fix everything up, you can look forward to quite a few blog posts made in the meantime.

For now though, I think I'll go to bed.

Oh, before I forget though: I added a few new tracks to my music player.

Minecraft Rant

15 Feb, 2025

Hello, happy late Valentines day to everyone, I suppose? I don't know, I don't really do Valentines. I was originally going to aim to draw Yamato but I just felt like today was kind of a lazy day. After all, I spent the entire week home alone up until the afternoon today while my family went on a small trip. Honestly, despite it being a bit of an emotional break where I don't have to interact with anyone outside of pets, it can be a bit draining as well.

The weather was also pretty bad. I heard that there was even a tornado warning for a part of the LA County? I heard it from a relative, but when I went to look it up, I didn't see anything related to it. Still, we don't get too much rain out here. But when you mix the rain and the wind, it kind of sucks.

Either way, I spent the days home alone and worked on a fair bit of the site. I'm still slowly changing things and working on adding stuff, but it's happening over time. I'll probably get to work again after a day or two, I just got asked to take a break, and in all honesty, I think I kind of needed it. I love working on my site, but sometimes too much coding in a short amount of time starts melting my brain, and my desire to do anything.

So, I got asked to start a Minecraft server...

Normally this isn't an issue for me. However, I wanted an easy time so I decided to go with a prebuilt pack that was on the lighter end, because one of my friends constantly has issues running some of the other packs I've suggested in the past. No worries, it happens.

Well, I ended up doing the opposite of that.

So, originally I wanted to run a build based off of Cobblemon. I thought, "Yeah, surely the Cobblemon official pack will be good." And it's just... I don't know, not great? I remember reading there's supposed to be a decent amount of new Terrain generation, but I found none. They also don't seem to let you use your own resource pack. I couldn't get it enabled and it just felt really bland. I don't know why, but my brain basically tells me "If I can't play with the resource pack I want, the game feels unplayable." Probably childish of me to do so, but hey sometimes you just want to use your own pack, and the feeling of fighting to get something to work really takes away from the easy feeling. At that point, might as well build my own.

So, I started looking into a mix of Cobblemon and Create, because that sounds fun...

Too bad the Createmon pack is just as barebones as the official Cobblemon pack...

In the end, after deliberating on what I wanted, I decided to base stuff off an old build of mine that I had on my tumblr (because thankfully I decided to list it.) However, since I'm limited on RAM, I had to set up an Aternos server. Which means... taking an hour or so to even get the damn thing running while I individually check every modpack. Seriously, it was such a headache. And it doesn't help when you're doing all the checking and you have 5 million crashes because you forgot to double check one or two things and see if they truly work together. I swear, I had to fix about 8 individual crash issues. Only for my friend to get upset that I said I wanted space to build and not have another build where we're 5 blocks away from one another. And then quit in an hour.

Yeah, kinda annoyed by that one.

At the very least, I was given a decent amount of candy & snacks from their trip. And also, my Frieren Popup came today. I'll do a blog about that later, as I've been meaning to do a loot blog. A while back I did mention Kaibaposting, and a loot blog would be a good time to Kaibapost.

Either way, I think I'll go back to tinkering with the pack I made. I do want to learn Create in earnest, and building on my own is a great excuse to do so. Besides, it'll give me a chance to post actual Minecraft content. I'll go back to adding in the new webring and fixing a bunch of other stuff later.

Silly

01 Feb, 2025

Kaiba doing what he does best

Very silly that he has that entire bed to himself while I work all night long at being unproductive.

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