honestly like the title says (if the title even works right), i find myself up at the odd hours of the night. it's almost a bit frustrating, because on one hand i've repeatedly attempted to fix my very "depressed person trying to get their life together" sleeping schedule. and for a while it worked. however, since i decided on a whim to make this post, i've noticed my sleep schedule just flip entirely due to the fact that well... let's be real here, most of my productivity just happens at night. it's just easier. everyone else is in bed, whether it be friends or family. so it's just... easier i suppose. but i guess it sucks because doing stuff during the day, especially when the time is about to change and throw a wrench in things, makes you feel so much more energized.

either way, this blog is up and running and i couldn't be happier. i've never had a blog that wasn't tied to a big service with automated posting and WYSIWYG editing. so this was a struggle for sure. it's definitely a bit surreal to dust off all my old coding and graphics skills to put something together by myself again. but it feels so much more fun and involved so i don't really mind the struggle of trying to put the text together again. finding all kinds of sites the old fashioned way of just stumbling upon them. wondering how to put my code together in a way that displays everything i want on my site. making layouts using an old ass copy of photoshp with some of the sloppiest webgraphics known to mankind. it's just fun.

on that topic though. i think i said it originally on my website that i would eventually put up some of my webgraphics for people to take and use. but yeah you can take and use my stuff. i really don't care. i used to run one of those webgraphic sites back in the day, where people made livejournal anime icons and all that, with super bright images and tinytext everywhere and those dust & paper textures, all that jazz. i think i still have some of the old ones floating around. i could probably find them if i looked hard enough, but i dunno where they are lol. anyways stuff like my code, my graphics, etc. i don't really care if people wanna use from it. or even ask for some of it. like 10+ years from now i don't know how my presence online will be. and i remember how i (and a fair share of others) used to be over webgraphics and people taking. but it's like, 10-20 years later now for some of this stuff. people have come and gone, and i doubt most of these people would even care if you took some of their stuff (outside of art.) like yeah we should definitely respect people and try to credit back when we can. that's always important. but it's really interesting to see how many graphics have been scavenged from old web sites and just passed around. i see credits going back from blog to blog, but i never see any actual definitive sources for a lot of stuff that it's like "damn, scavenged really is the right words here." makes us feel like some sort of archaeologists lol. anyways, if anyone wants any of my stuff taken down or any definitive sources of where i got an image, i'll try to provide it to the best of my ability. i can't promise anything. i definitely haven't sat there and saved the source of every image i've ever used, and i've saved so much over the years, passing it from pc to pc. i can only try to reverse image search and hope for the best.

that being said, if anything of yours is on my page and you wish for it to be taken down, please let me know. i will remove it to the best of my ability.

i guess on the topic of my site though. it does feel nice to be done with things, but i do feel that i have a lot left to do. i feel like i've just dumped image galleries all over a few pages rather than allowing some of my pages to contain thoughts and actual content. i suppose after i get some stuff organized i'll start actually making pages. but i think i'd like to actually make a web shrine to a degree. probably for the tcg page. if there's anything i really love, it's pokemon cards. (says guy who keeps ending up selling their cards every few years when they go inactive in collecting.) but i guess if that means i get to talk about cards and some of the really cool designs of stuff that i used to have, i'll make an entire new layout and what not to talk about cards. i dunno if i'll do the same for some of the other things, but i definitely should go through and like make some sort of document related to the various merch i've collected over the years and talk about it. because i feel like if you're not taking pictures of your merch to show off and be passionate abaout then well... it's kinda just sitting there collecting dust. collecting tends to be the only thing i'm really passionate about, though part of me wonders if that means i'm on my way to becoming a hoarder.

i dunno, i kinda don't wanna think about it. at least not tonight

at the very least though, i keep putting off looking through my art and deciding what i want to show off. i guess that's the next part of the website on the to do list to get through. well... that and joining some stuff but that also means i gotta sit down and figure out how i want to insert stuff like my cbox properly and also webrings & fanlistings i want to join. feels like so much to do and so little time. oh well. i'll just remember to take it day by day. might remove things like the blinkies and the buttons and put them on another page instead of scrolling though. gotta make a proper links out page at some point too.

honestly the more i look the more there is to do. maybe i should just close my eyes and play some games. today's probably a good time to go back to xiv considering there's a free log in event and i also still have yet to do the current event. should do that before it's too late...

i suppose i should cut this blog off here, considering i don't have much to ramble about and im just, well, rambling at this point. i've been slacking on so many things. lots to do in xiv, considering 6.1 is soon and i haven't logged in in a good while. honestly, i'm straight up unsubbed because i'm just here like "well im not raiding, and because i haven't done the tier i can't do the new ultimate, not that i have the time." but i wish i had the time to align to raid, because i wish i could do the newest ultimate. but if i think on it, i'll just end up depressed. luckily, new alliance raid soon. i haven't ever played xi before, so i'm excited.

i also have slacked for this years mabi halloween event. i really hope they put more transformation medals that are cool in the event. i know they said they did the latest pcs but i think theyre just doing transformations buyable from npcs again. i have a ton left over from last year that i meant to sell but i started this (oops).

honestly maybe i should just make my game related stuff soon too. but also talking about games is great and all, but it's been a while since i've actually played games... insane.

ok that's all from me for now. i have plenty of stuff to do, and i should work on that.