So I said back when I was hitting around 50k views & 60 followers on neocities that I'd do something special, and then I never did because I really didn't know what to do. Well, I'm at 150 followers (Actually 158, can't believe already nearing 160) and 100k views according to Neocities and I decided I'd attempt to do something a bit special which is why I decided on allowing people to ask me whatever via email or wherever they want to ask it (Some people picked neocities, and a few in DMs on discord). I didn't get too many, which is okay, I'm really grateful for those who asked a question either way, so this article is basically that. Forgive me, because I didn't exactly know how I wanted to do the formatting, so I just kinda did whatever. I'm not super great at talking about myself, so I won't lie, this was pretty awkward to answer. Mostly because I always think that I'm oversharing and I can't help but wonder if I come off as annoying, offputting, or just straight up rude because I tend to be pretty upfront with opinions if someone asks me directly. That, and I try to keep things away from ranting, but I don't always succeed (which is why I burry all my personal stuff in the miniblog these days--Which isn't really mini. It's just not formal entries)

Either way, thank you to the people who participated! I kept things anonymous for the sake of simplicity. I hope nobody minds (Not that everyone can be named on Neocities anyways because I'm not exactly aware of every matching email, and some of the questions were asked via friends in discord that don't even have accounts.)

Question 1: Do you like waffles

Yeah. I actually prefer them to pancakes because they're crispier. Nothing beats a waffle with real butter on it.

Question 2: What's with the obsession with water?

BJCC Phase Water/Ice Placements. Water goes on B unless it's on D. You need water over on B for the first part so that when you need to LoS for Propeller Wind. Don't forget to BPOG for Gavel.

Question 3: Aren't the lewd figures kinda awkward?

To be honest, not really? I'm a grown adult and I don't think they're that bad. Besides, at the time of writing this, it's really just 3 + 1 I am working on a review for that isn't even mine. From the ones that are, they don't really have to be displayed with explicit nudity (as they have options), so I just don't see them as a problem.

Question 4: Favorite games & movies?

I've never really thought much about my favorite movies to be quite honest. I just have never been a huge movie watcher. I suppose I'll post what I said in an MFC thread not that long ago, because it's the closest thing I have to a favorite movies list.

  • Disney's Hercules
  • Fantasia
  • Spirited Away
  • Shrek 2
  • Willy Wonka & The Chocolate Factory (The one with Gene Wilder)
  • R.E.N.T. (Even if it's not as good as the stage version)
  • At this rate I think Darkside of Dimensions is also getting up there oops

Favorite games is a bit easier:

  • Mainline Pokemon series, notably Generations 2&4 specifically for their reigons and heavy focus on mythology.
  • Final Fantasy series. I'd say Tactics is probably my favorite entry followed by 10, 9, & 14
  • Bungie's Halo entries.
  • Touhou Project, even if I don't really keep up with it these days
  • The Tales of Series, most notably Vesperia
  • Umineko, even if it's a Visual Novel and "not a game" in some people's eyes.
  • Fallout series. I've sunk a disgusting amount of time into 3 for whatever reason.
  • Yume 2kki, but I love any and all Yume Nikki fangames.

Question 5: I hope you don't mind me asking, but I saw you bring up yume shipping stuff in the past and as a yume, I wanted to know about your ships if thats okay with you?

(I attempted to clean up the grammar and shorten this one a bit, I apologize.)

I won't lie, I can't tell if this is about yume shipping as a whole or shipping in general. At some point I think I had clarification on here regarding that, but I removed it because I honestly just don't tend to post a lot of shipping content made by me, even though I have a fair amount of ships.

In general, I tend to be open minded about ships. I'm fine with most type of shipping (Het, GL, BL, OCxCanon, Yume, extreme AU) and partake in most of it, I just don't super tend to use a lot of the labels. For example I have a ton of Male/Male ships but I don't really tend to use the label Fujoshi either.

When it comes to my own Yumes, most of them are from MMOs with whatever character I'm into. But most of my MMO characters tend to be full on OCs rather than just a self insert, because I have this kind of weird disconnect that I feel prevents me from being full Yume. A friend described it more of "You seem more platonic Yume" and I mean I guess? But I was also a very active roleplayer, and most times when I did OCxCanon rp, I was usually the person rping the Canon character. So I guess it's more of "I heavily ship OCxCanon, I enjoy reading it, I enjoy seeing other people's OCs, I love interacting with them as canon characters" so I'm just here like... Yeah I like Yume content. Probably not in the same way as most people because I can't sit there and find myself shipping with all that many characters and it being like... myself. I bring this up because some people's OCs are a self insert and other people's OCs are a full on OC and people constantly debate on what side of Yume people should be on.

I guess if I were to answer which characters I've seriously shipped with when it comes to Yume/OCxCanon it'd be the following:

Back around the time Vesperia first came out and people started to do RP on tumblr like way WAYYY long ago (I'm talking like 2009-2012ish) I used to ship Schwann (Specifically his Schwann 'side') x My main OC that I kind of just have a variant of in like every way. However this was short lasted becaue I realized I liked roleplaying as Raven & Schwann in general and I dropped the idea moreso in favor of that. Back then Yume shipping was definitely a thing, but it was seen as "very deviantart-y" and the rpers at Tumblr definitely didn't really like it as much so it was frowned upon in some of the little RP communities within tumblr. Another thing was that my ship realy didn't have substance because said OC really didn't have a lot to her, so it was easy to give it up. I ended up writing it into a general catch all AU that I made with a friend much later but I don't really use that OC as a self representative as much any longer so she's just her own character. But it's also all very private writing and what not. I don't like bringing things up around other Raven fans for sure and I definitely get afraid of them due to the sheer amount of bullying I endured over the years As a Raven roleplayer in general. Besides, for a long time, I felt scared to admit to even liking Raven because of the amount of death threats I got in my inbox while my family went through a custody battle. Seeing drama around Raven & Yumes these days (because yes there is indeed drama relating to an ANCIENT GAME for some reason) just puts me off so I don't really bother with Raven Yume stuff and I never will because of that. I just jokingly call him "My Beautiful Wife, Bald Raven Vesperia" and that's it. And I know even that is enough to get a certain person riled up. IDK, I don't enjoy fighting over fictional characters, even if they're ones I have a lot to say about.

Also side note I tend to be public about my other Raven ships as I tend to ship Yuri x Raven, Alexei x Scwhann, Canary x Damuron, and Yaeger x Raven.

Black Mask from Mabinogi x My Milletian OC was pretty much my main Yume ship for a lot of years. I generally find it very hard to feel the same though because Mabinogi's story definitely moved on and left no room for doubt on his fate. I also specifically say Black Mask instead of Tarlach in general because not only has the translation of G1-3 changed over the years, but some Mabi fans will debate whether or not Saga deserves to even be called the same story and it's generally looked down upon. I however, am generally fine with it, even if the writing is not remotely good. Basically, it's hard to ship something that has just become "Just another thing the Milletian did and we're not really touching on it any longer" and kind of left that OC in a mental rut. So I kind of retired this ship.

G'raha Tia from FFXIV x My Catboy WoL is another ship that I was very much into after I moved away from Mabi and back to XIV. This ship is done to death, I know, but I had someone get VERY VERY WEIRD about it on me and another person get super hyper competitive about it towards me and make some snide remarks very often about how much more in love their WoLs were, so I tend to not really enjoy talking about it nearly as much. Like IDK, I am not against the idea of sharing, but when you've had G'raha in your OC's backstory since ARR it's really awkward when people get super rude to you when that character actually shows up again and suddenly everyone wants to fuck Grandpa Crystal. I don't mind sharing or being respectful of other people's business but I just don't enjoy the sudden 'went from friends to now we're competing for a virtual character's love' mentality. I'm too old for this. I cut pretty much all friendships in the XIV community that went that way and even ones that weren't from the XIV community that definitely overstepped boundaries when it came to this pairing. Sharing Yumes, I'm okay with. I'm fine with being cordial until someone else makes it weird and competitive. I would rather agree to not talk about something than to force us to bond over something we don't see eye to eye on if we're friends. If we're just acquaintances, I'm unfortunately not going to give nowhere near as much grace the instant you express wanting to fight.

Outside of all this, when it comes to actual personal Yume stuff where I'm like 'these are my own feelings towards this character,' I really only have Ysayle Dangoulain who is like... Dead. And has been dead in XIV since like 2015. I legit love my beautiful dead wife and I am continuously mourning her loss because she is so beautiful to me still and I legit attempted to prog DSR due to the thought of "maybe in this timeline she can come back to me" but until I clear DSR she can't. That sounds like a shitpost but I'm copium at this point.

I've also talked a lot about trying to smooch Athena (from XIV) and like yeah that's true but like also IDK I'm weird. I've never really seen it as Yumeing her but also move out of the way Lahabrea that's my wife now. Haha Erichthonios I am fucking your mom.

Pretty much any other character I've said is my beautiful wife tends to be a joke. I don't actually yume them. I don't also tend to Yume characters I shrine because those are moreso characters I just relate to.

Like, I don't think I could seriously personally Yume Dio Brando. I've tried. It's not for me.

I also can't really Yume Yamato Nikaido. I tried there too. I realized that I was far more too interested in being in the characters head (roleplay wise) and thus I played around with the idea of making him the village bicycle before realizing that I'm in the YamaYuki retirement home and that kind of ship is what actually suits me most. Am I a housewrecker for prefering this to MomoYuki? Maybe. But I'm also fine with MomoYuki because that's the power of being a Multishipper.

I suppose I should address the Seto Kaiba shaped elephant in the room but I don't feel like I have much to say. On my old tumblr blog where I tossed my original BYF for twitter I've stated my discomfort in people kind of placing me as a Kaiba-wife and I will bring that up here on Neocities as well. I don't really enjoy that term. Feels very rooted in the term "Snape-wife" and there's just... 500 things I could bring up in relation to that that would derail this already very long response. I will jokingly call Seto Kaiba "My Beautiful Wife" but I call him that in the same way I say it about Drang: It's a Joke (actually, Drang is probably moreso my wife than even Kaiba is. Drang & I had an entire "Divorce Arc," IYKYK)

Basically Seto Kaiba is moreso someone I can wholly identify with and just put a lot of missing pieces of a puzzle that's been left half assembled when it came to my mental health and dealing with trauma. And considering we have a lot of overlapping trauma as well, it's harder not to just go "Yeah that's probably a kin." But I'm also in my 30's and while I'm not here to disrespect any otherkin, I won't lie that I'm very lucid about it all and just leave it at that. He's a fictional character from when I was 11 and I wasn't even the primary Yugioh watcher in my house. I just consider the fact that once upon a time, someone told me that it is very core to the Lesbian Experience to have a Yugioh Character that you wholly identify with on such a level that it becomes a core part of your identity as a Lesbian. And that's what Seto Kaiba is to me.

Also my brain kinda reads him as still being pretty young and I'm pretty old so even though I've had some people argue and be like 'Well he's old enough to be your Husbando anyways because YGO is from 2001ish and that's when most people got into it,' like thanks for the excuse? I guess? IDK. I don't really feel that way about him still, but I won't lie when het men make me very uncomfortable I will absolutely say "Yeah um I'm already married," and lean towards that implication but I also do that with like any anime man so it's not like it's Kaiba exclusive. It's just that some het men don't really respect lesbians! That's a whole different topic though.

Also when it comes to shipping & Kaiba, I like Kaijou a lot. But with YGO in general I love most of these ships and I think the funny ass dynamics of putting all these kids in a room and sorting out what the hell is going on between them is really funny and very entertaining to me. Like if you show up and you're handing me a YGO ship that has enough spunk, I am probably going to consume what you're serving me.

The last character I shrine I also don't Yume and that's Miku because my brain can get a little too meta at times and just repeatedly go "BUT SHE'S SOFTWARE." That is not shade to anyone who wants to yume any Vocaloid/Vsinger/Utau/etc. That's just my brain being weird and why I don't do it.

The TL;DR on this one is: I generally just like shipping and roleplay. I used to Yume ship a lot but it's moreso in the past and when I do it these days it's very platonic joking as I don't really seriously have a F/O and the closest thing to my F/O would be Ysayle Dangoulain, who is well, dead. Instead, I am here to read Yume content and have fun seeing that, because I still generally enjoy that as a roleplayer. I don't fight over this stuff though I'm just some guy here who likes to make their dolls kiss, and also partakes in enjoying seeing other people making their dolls kiss.

Also actually on the topic of F/Os uh, I am just not that dedicated to fictional characters that I would choose that over something with a real person. And that's not to slam any yumes, but I know that different yumes will have different takes on what is and isn't Yumeing and while I personally haven't seen a general consensus on what should and shouldn't be considered, I do like to cover all of my bases when I address topics like this.

Edit: So while having a friend proofread this, they asked why I decided to join the Yume Ring using Kaiba. Simple answer: I saw another mutual on Neocities join with a joke answer and I decided I also wanted to join with a joke answer because I think if I hung out with Seto Kaiba, I would be the guy eating the cards when he's not looking. That and the Yume Ring I joined allowed friendship/platonic & familial type relationships as well. The reason I didn't want to join with a character I actually Yume romantically was not wanting to paint a target on my back due to a weird situation with a specific person who, while they don't go on Neocities to my knowledge, is known for stalking. And truth be told, I'm too old to get into petty games with people like that, so I just do not bother. I am not welcoming any unneeded stress in my life on purpose, I have enough of that.

Question 6: What is your favorite piece in your collection?

Mofuyama.

Question 7: Can you lock the fuck in?

Question 8: What's with (the OC) you draw in your blog?

(Sorry I tweaked wording on this one a little as well)

That's my current FFXIV Wol's design. Her name is Halo Two, like the video game, and she is married to Raven Vesperia who feeds her Baja Blast and Chicken nuggies and she's also married to Kevin, a friend I raid with from time to time. They are both her wives. She looks like this in game:

Halo Two Character Card

I don't have any serious lore about Halo Two because I don't tend to write a lot of OC or other RP content anymore. At the moment I have 2 YGO AUs and an AU split between me & a friend and that's really it. So Halo Two is just a meme that was born from me wanting to change my name in XIV because all my other friends changed from their lore names to meme names.

IDK how to finish off a section about XIV without using 500 words to say "this game makes me evil." I'm like that "badness level" picture from the original Lilo & Stitch with this game. So like, while I'd normally make the offer to do things in game, I'm just gonna say if you wanna add me, you're free to do so, but I really only raid log and I don't talk in game. I am that guy.

Anyways you should all go prog TEA.

Question 9: how did you come up with your current layout?

No joke, I drew a series of squares. Like in MS Paint. And that's basically how I came up with the way I styled my divs. Of course, behind the scenes as I do stuff like this, I tend to have my HTML file pulled up in browser locally, and both my HTML file & CSS file open in Notepad++ and I just save and test things out. And I continuously brute force a style that I can visually see until it works and it starts looking like my mock up layout thing I made. I'm sure you can tell by looking that it's not 1:1 but it's kinda close enough.

Layout mockup

I tend to do this for a lot of the things that I make when I'm serious about it. I just remember I went looking at a few other sites for inspiration, realized they did everything by using divs, and just kinda started making divs and tried to keep things as organized as I could. Eventually everything started to look the way I wanted through CSS making things a lot smoother, and it eventually got to the final stage.

I also have another example of how I plan things out, but I decided against this plan at the current moment because I didn't want to make all these pages. At some point in the future I may make more stuff related to this plan:

Layout mockup

Honestly that's really just it. I draw something, then I set out to make it look like that. Doesn't always go as planned. But who knows, maybe one day I'll have my about section more or less filled in with more content. At some point I might just make an OCs section or a "characters I super relate to/kin" section or maybe even a list of all of my favorite things even though I have that fanlistings joined thing that goes on the bottom.