Decided to get butter pecan ice cream with cajeta (as if it needed more sugar) because I made myself sad by writing fanfiction of my oc with my friend where I put said oc in the endless torture nexus because I'm bored and want to regurgitate childhood trauma.

I had albondigas soup for dinner. Homemade too. Mine always turns red, because I put my rice in it. I also had flour tortillas with it but those kind of evaporated in an instance. Well either way, this hit just perfectly. It's been kinda gloomy and overcast lately. Weird for the end of May, to be quite honest. But it sucks because my allergies are going INSANE in the meanwhile. It shouldn't be like this. It's so fucked up. Put me out of my misery. The soup didn't help with the allergies as much as I thought it would. In fact, I think I sneezed just as much.

I made chicken nuggets at 2 am because I was starving. Not only did I get told that the lighting made it seem like he was interrogating me for not eating (beacuse I will admit that I uh... don't tend to eat as much as I should) but also, we completely ran out of barbecue sauce and I thought they were supposed to get more and they didn't get more. We went to the market yesterday and still didn't get more. And then they went to walmart today and I think they STILL didn't get more. I'm fucking dying out here please I need barbecue sauce. I felt like a 5 year old using ketchup on my chicken nuggets. I love barbecue. I love brown sugar barbecue and honey barbecue and any other kind of barbecue just please give me the goddamn barbecue I fucking need it. I'm living in a hell of my own making. Because my greedy ass has been craving the chicken nuggets so hard. I don't know how I'm losing weight still. I feel like I eat the same way a malnourished opossum would. In theory I should be gaining it all back. But here I am.

I know this says "meal log" but like hear me out hear me out now: This is my new favorite thing. He is soft he is huggable he is loveable and he just wants to feed you. I have to share all my meals with him. Particularly because I have no place for him and I don't want to sentence him to the plush net just yet but oh my god. Best plush I bought since Mofuyama sorry Minicolle Kaiba get the hell outta here.

Maybe having him on my desk will shame me into eating better. I eat somewhat healthy food (a lot of greens when I'm not being a dumpster diving rat) but I could probably do a lot better if I ate like... breakfast lunch and dinner not just a single meal.

So I'll leave him there.