Allergies drove me crazy today so I laid in bed super late. I ate leftover pancakes from this morning for dinner, because the carnitas they had weren't too great they said. And considering I ate a small bit of them, uh... yeah they unfortunately really weren't. One of the saddest things in the world is to have underwhelming carnitas. Like, what the fuck.

Watched some Jojos with a friend and had the craving for anything, so my ass found some garlic naan that I had sitting around and then thought to pair it with left over spaghetti sauce so it got used. Was pretty damn good actually. I keep eating too much bread though.

Just a reminder: Diamond is Unbreakable is a goated part and you should watch it or read it. Why not both? Chew.

White People Taco Night.

1: A new guy came in the mail. I'm pretty sure the only reason he made it through was because he snuck through customs at the last second. He is so cute though I love him and... I don't have a spot for him so he will be taking place of the other one until I have a spot for him.

2: This is the worst pizza I've ever had. This stuff tasted like cafeteria pizza. I'm usually a lot kinder towards frozen pizza but this is not good. I just didn't like it. First off, it said deep dish. It wasn't deep dish. It had puffy ass high rising crust. Like, I get it, you shouldn't buy frozen pizza that says deep dish and actually expect deep dish, but like... The toppings didn't even fully cover the pizza. And then it also had that like pizza hut spongy crust and I hate that shit. IT'S NOT GOOD. AUGH. I thought the Yasso bar would be a bit better, but it also wasn't!!! I was promised sea salt caramel, but like, I didn't taste any sea salt or caramel. It was okay it wasn't like bad but it wasn't the flavor it claimed to be.

Also if it wasn't for my grandma wanting this pizza, I wouldn't have eaten pizza twice in a day.

Depression REALLY struck at midnight. I had a really bad dream of sorts n it lingered for a while. What's the responsible thing to do when you are sad? Clearly, eat like garbage and drink. I gotta step up my diet game. I gotta step up my weight loss. I'm failing so miserably...

Sphaghetti with homemade sauce my beloved.

YAY YIPPIE GREEN FOOD THE BEST KIND OF FOOD. We went out because originally me and both my grandparents were gonna go eat, but after a while, my grandpa didn't feel too great. So the 2 of us went out. I also did a little shopping, but most of all, I had a really good salad then got to walk around for like 3 hours and it was awesome. We ate closer to lunch than dinner but a 3 pm salad dinner is pretty neat. And then I went to Miniso and bought like a handful of merch of my babygirl.

Had extreme depression episode, and made a midnight grilled cheese. Could have offset it by eating something remotely healthier later in the evening, but nope, more depression meals made in the airfryer.

I think I had leftovers again on the 5th. I honestly don't see a picture from that day, so I'm just going to assume. It doesn't mean I didn't eat that day or something, I swear. Even if I eat like garbage because my grandparents never buy any damn greens or good vegetables without me nagging them to do so, I still eat. Anyways I also got a little sweet treat. The ice cream is SOOOOO CLOSE to him in this picture, but it's okay, he didn't get dirty. I would pass away if he did.

The only thing that's good about this fuck ass "holiday" is the food. Sorry, I'm not patriotic by any means whatsoever. But I do love the grill.

Yummy yummy mini cheesecake... This is why I'm not losing weight.

I was an abolute fool and burnt my burger and He Knows. This is why he looks away in disgust. But I cannot waste food I have to eat it, that's what he'd want. That's what he'd do.

Honestly I really dislike wasting food because like, y'know, people out there are starving, gotta be grateful for what you have etc. Basically even if it was like a burnt hockey puck, I still ate it.

Eat it, French Boy.

I swear this image was not taken at like 3 am.

A little treat for him because he is so sweet. I manifested the new Sanji no Oyatsu merch with this picture. That was all me. You can thank me by sending lots of claps, lots of cbox messages, and signing my guest book. Maybe you'll even link me ooo.

No Snooj in the first one. I went out though, and while I was walking around, I got this little cake thing. I split most of it with my grandma, to be quite honest. Like I took a bite, saw some armed cops walk into the Best Buy when I was sitting on the bench, and decided I needed to get the fuck out of there.

I came home and made stirfry not that long after this picture and like... I will not lie I regret buying that package of meat. It said it was for fajitas but it's just not great.

You know it's a great day when the only thing I take pictures of eating is a literal bowl of chips. I've been going too hard on carbs lately. I think we were watching the One Piece Live Action again. So the chips were a stress response to seeing whatever the fuck they did to my Babygirl...

10 PM chicken burger. I also had a cookie. That's it send tweet.

We ran errands that day, and ended up at the Costco food court. I love their pizza so much so I naturally got a slice. We also got some caramel iced coffee, but it wasn't great to be honest. You know something has way too much sugar when it's too sweet for me. Anyways I ate this closer to lunch than dinner, iirc.

Left over stew for the next day. I'm pretty sure it was because they all went out to dinner, and I wasn't really invited, so I just ate this instead. Honestly, I remember eating it at like 3 PM because I was cleaning and what not. Still, it was quite good. We're going to also ignore the fact that it's clearly edited because I realized the inside of my bowl was a mess and I don't think Chef Babygirl would want his food to be served messy. I know it's a part of life but like... yeah I should have just wiped it off with a piece of bread tbh.

Nothing like a little bowl of watermelon. Probably my favorite part of summer.

I had stew for dinner. I had like a really rough night trying to sleep, passed out all day because I felt kinda sick, and then woke up and it was nearly dinner. And there was stew. Stew is honestly one of my favorite things to eat, I love it a lot. I don't know what kind of stew this is, it's like... just beef stew. But I love it. It's so good warm yummy soft fluffy rice tasty vegetable tender meat yummy yummy stew. I love stew.

Two singular hot dogs for dinner LMAO. God, I want to go to the market and get some decent food and not just be eating constant garbage. But right now we don't have much in the way of healthy food. God, I'm begging. I just want to eat something green.

I was given a thing of nacho cheese and told to eat nachos today. I put them on my desk, and he fell over. I don't think he likes nachos. That's the first time he's ever done that. I can feel his judgemental little gaze on me. Please understand, I'm trying.

Since my lunch was heavy, but I was starving when it was like 9 PM, I had some soup for dinner. My grandma had picked up some French bread from the local grocery and it was heavenly. So soft. It's too bad my grandpa ate it all and I got like a single piece of it...

Aside from my grandparents, I think he likes soup. Look how happy he looks to see soup.

My grandparents had some kinda cheap, not so great takeout the night before. Since I had a left over bun, I tossed it in for lunch. This meal felt really weirdly greasy. The noodles actually tasted better cold.

If my doll could speak, I feel like he'd probably ask me what my ordeal with eating cold noodles is. I do it a lot with spaghetti too...

I had steamed buns and a milkshake, but I had attacked the milkshake on the way home because I was starving. And it had boba in it. It was really good actually. I love caramel milkshakes.

Struggle meal. By that I mean it's just leftovers. There wasn't a whole lot so I made a quesadilla as well, but it ended up being too much food.

Instead of heading my doctors advice, I have decided to commit war crimes against my body and eat garbage late at night again. And by garbage I mean a cake that my grandpa didn't want so it's like 3 days old now, and also some salami for whatever reason. I'm going to blame cravings.

Picked up a teriyaki chicken bowl from a local place and a drinkie yommi. I swear, every time they have the tropical OceanBomb in stock, I just instinctively buy them. My local Daiso doesn't even carry this flavor anymore. I have to go to H-MART to get it now, and I noticed they moved all their anime drinks to the front again. This world is trying to take the Sanji OceanBomb from me and I am going to crash out.

I got told to eat something before leaving so I ate giant pancake. I won't lie, while I don't mind some syrup on my pancakes, I really just prefer the taste of butter. Probably the unhealthiest thing I've ever said...

Leftovers. This time, I ate them with my doll. I added onions and garlic because we didn't have any greens on hand. I really need to be eating healthier. The birthday month is always packed with junkfood. But it doesn't feel good to eat like that all the time. I say this while eating like a rat that found its way into a pantry and attacked the greasiest food it could find at any given moment.

This is the most pathetic looking picture the fucking bun doesn't even cling around it lmao. I was too lazy to put anything on it whatsoever too. Was just tired after the piles and piles of dishes and cleanup I had to do.

Barbecue plate. Everything was pretty good, especially after I worked my ass off to get this patio cleaned over like 3 or so days. Man, I was so tired after this. I didn't take any of my plush outside, because I didn't want my family to see n absolutely just destroy me for taking my dolls out of my room. So uh yeah, here's the plate as is. Proof I can eat without some sort of dolls around because I'm sure anyone who's looked through my gallery has seen the odd picture of Kaiba with food as well.

The tinfoil is corn for the big one, and caramelized onions for the small ones.

3 days late birthday cake. That I ate at midnight. All alone. Kinda feels sad when I put it that way, but I told myself that everything was fine because sharing it with Sanji is like sharing it with a friend.

I'm not depressed... I'm not depressed at all... I swear I'm fine. It's not a big deal anyways.

Not me eating garbage for dinner again...

Was given an almond cookie. It's okay. Not my favorite. But it hits different when you eat it after cheap takeout food rather than your own burnt-egg stuck-egg breakfast-dinner.

I think he should be the one making the eggs from now on because I cannot. But alas, he is just a doll with stuffing in his little brain.

I didn't know what to make one night, so I made breakfast plate for dinner. I dunno why, but the nonstick pan I have that I usually make stuff in (notably that bacon) doesn't seem to play well with eggs. They always end up getting kinda burnt or like a layer of them gets stuck to the pan and I can't like flip it properly. It's not an issue of using not enough oil either, it's just... I dunno, cursed pan I suppose. Either way uh, the eggs weren't great so I just put ketchup on them I swear I'm not like a child and still putting ketchup on my eggs...

I had tacos earlier today, but since I was eating them in our kitchen due to taking a break while cleaning, I couldn't really get a picture of them. And I wasn't about to touch my poor plush while my hands were absolutely filthy. So, no taco picture. Instead, you get the final cajeta milkshake picture because we are out of cajeta.

In N Out burger on birthday more like the Southern Californian classic. I don't like anything on my burgers though. But also uh, I probably shouldn't have had a pink lemonde after drinking a boba. That's way too much sugar.

Heehee Sunright Tea Boba... As usual, jasmine milk tea. I didn't do anything really too special. I never add crazy add ons with it. Just always boba. Also this picture was hard to take. I should have went to the tables to take it where I could prop him up, but no. I was feeling stubborn.

10 PM frozen pizza to keep me company while I have a breakdown.

I went to lunch today. The usual place in town we tend to go for anything now, now that the first place we useds to go closed down. Well, it's okay. Not like it bothers me. Either way Mr Popular was immediately spotted and complimented. Seems like withCAT Sanji is very popular when I take him places. He managed to get more compliments than Kaiba has and less weird comments.

Also the weird ice cream ball things were kinda neat.

I was going to call this a healthy dinner, but no it is really not. That's homemade fried chicken, but a pile of nuclear colored mac&cheese goo. IDK why I ate it. I'm going to end up like the fish from the Simpsons at this rate.

I dunno why this has a filter on it when I don't usually filter my food pics but ok it just looks even more nuclear now.

My greed knows no bounds. Midnight milkshake while we watched Netflix Live Action One Piece. What the fuck did they do to Sanji? Yes I know I've already seen it I've already ranted about it. I'M STILL MAD.

"I eat hot chip and lie" but more like "I eat barbecue chip and cry."

Anyone ever notice that the pizza is called DiGiorno but we never see DIO and Giorno in the same room? Hmmmmmm? What's up with that?

Anyways digiorno pizza kinda fuckin slaps. Like, it's actually so good for what it is. And like, I get it, frozen pizza isn't great and all. But this isn't bad at all.

I made stirfry again, but this time I put way more noodles. And I mean wayyyyy more noodles. Like more than anyone ever needed. I legitimately couldn't eat it all, it was too much. I also felt like the amount of noodles paired with the amount of seasoning I added just wasn't balanced. So I'll go back to using half the amount of noodles. I have learned from my avarice and sinful gluttonous ways. Except no I probably didn't. That was a lie, sorry.

Some people on this bitch of an earth would call this ice cream "toothpaste flavored," but little do they know that it's the best shit ever. Some of us like being minty fresh. And refreshed. I'm flourishing out here. Mint enjoyers are so fucking real.

Midnight quesadilla goes kinda hard ngl.

4 PM pancake yommi. I should... uh, get something more than a single pancake to eat, maybe.

Stayed up decently late watching Bleach. Had this while I was watching. Fed this silly guy an ice cream sandwich. Truth be told, I don't really like ice cream sandwiches, but I wanted more sweets like a goddamned goblin last night. So I had one.

Stirfry for dinner again. This time with fajitas. I really just toss whatever in a bowl and say "yeah, that's good enough."

I ran a bunch of errands yesterday. Went to the mall. Saw a bunch of overpriced prize figures and cried inside because there was nothing I wanted in particular. So then I got a boba because I was pissed off. Boba Time is not that great of a chain, I will admit. Their tea isn't too bad, this was just jasmine milk tea. But the boba is kinda ehh. I dunno, other places make their boba a lot better. Sunright you will forever be my goat.

After we got home from the furniture store, we stopped at a salad place. I mostly had a caesar salad because if you put caesar salad in front of me, I will reach for it. But also I didn't take a lot of pictures because we had a big tray and I may have accidentally got a bit messy with mine. I did however have a bit of softserve with caramel on it because I also really love caramel.

I remember I was like "yeah I'mma take better care of myself I'mma really stick to my diet" and then I didn't do that.

The 9th is my sister's birthday. But she doesn't live here, so we didn't get together. Kinda sad. Oh well. I had an eggy sandwich and went to the furniture store. I wish eggs were also not bad for your cholesterol because I love eggs. I love them so damn much.

Believe it or not, this is what an average meal that I cook for myself looks like. It's just that I haven't really gotten too much of an opportunity to cook for myself lately. IDK, we've all been eating the same thing most nights. Which is good. But we still don't eat together as a family. But also like, idk, I know nobody else wanna eat like me. This was asparagus and onions with some pan seared chicken breast with brown rice. I don't usually eat rice too often lately due to cholesterol concerns, but it was left over. So I ate it. It was yummy.

Just curious for any given passerby for this site: Do you like butter on your rice? I hate it. But I always get told I'm weird. I also don't tend to like rice pilaf. Like much at all. I dunno, at some point as a child I went from liking buttered rice & rice pilaf quite a bit to not being able to stand it much anymore. But one of the things they always show Sanji making is rice pilaf. I think if he made it for me, I would eat it. But if it's that rice-a-roni shit that my mom always tries to give me, I will get mad. How dare you.

To the chagrin of my attending physician, I have committed the sin of gluttony and probably made my cholesterol worse by only eating THIS for dinner one night. Dunno if it was worth it to be quite honest. Like yeah it tastes good in the moment, but I grew to regret it. I think I definitely gained weight that night.

We got together for dinner to celebrate a few birthdays today. I was on a lot of ibuprofen and probably shouldn't have drank, but I honestly feel great aside from eating slightly too much (The tequila did not do anything bad to me at all I'm fine and normal). God I ate slightly too much. I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have felt such absolute greed when I was picking my food. I shouldn't have taken the other cheesecake there would have been plenty left over and yet I still persisted once we got home. I pushed forward. I told myself "This will make me stronger. This will enable me to face Kefka." But nothing will prepare me for Kefka.

Anyways, the withCAT Sanji seems to be very popular. He got complimented so much.

I'm going to lay in my bed and listen to Amy Winehouse now.

I also was forcefed more pastrami. There is still pastrami left over. And fries. Well, what do you expect? It's The Hat.

I had a really bad toothache yesterday so instead of being productive, I laid in bed and I sat there trying to feed him m&ms while I suffered. And then devoured said m&ms in order to take like 800mg of ibuprofen. Now that I think on it, s0ul said I was going to end up meeting the hatman at this rate if I keep turning to the ibuprofen.

Would you share Fig Newton with him?

I love when I go to The Hat and they manage to screw up my order by just straight up not including my sandwich out of an order of 3 sandwiches and then the next day after pointing it out they give us a new order and then fuck it up again. Like I don't want to be evil to fast food workers because they go through enough but how hard is it to make a plain sandwich with no mustard and no pickles? I always end up with this issue somehow I don't know how it keeps happening. But also I guess there's so much damn pastrami that it doesn't matter I can just get different bread like I did here.

I am literally the victim of the "THEY SAID NO PICKLES" meme quite often tbh.

I forgot to upload it over the last few days, because I've just been busy, lazy, and had a toothache. But I'm better now (I probably need to see the dentist but pliers are free.) Anyways, we split a piece of tres leches cake like 6 different ways and I had the final little piece. It was good. I want more. Like right now. Even though I'm full.

I made one of those oven pizzas today because I was feeling the sin of gluttony. Everyone else went to the casino but my brokeass is stuck here. Honestly, these pizzas never look good in photos unless its like, digiorno ones. And this is not digiorno its like, red barron which is just... ehhh whatever. But I didn't want pepperoni pizza so I just made this. I'm going to regret it, I'm certain of it. Mostly due to the calorie & carb count. And it really isn't even all that good either which is the real kicker.

Oh well it's whatever, I am sad. I wish my pizza was better and I kinda wanna bedrot because my mood's kinda whatever. IDK, maybe I'll go write fanfic or something. Or hallucinate. Which is like writing fanfic in my head without the productive part.

Maybe the goal should be to hallucinate Sanji making me a better pizza. You'll do that for me, right?

Apparently there's a new Mexican mart that opened up in our city, and my grandparents decided to go after voting (which I admittedly slept through like an idiot oops.) So they got some tortillas and carnitas. I was too lazy to make rice or anything so this is flat as fuck it's admittedly a burrito of sadness, but also like... It doesn't matter cos it was really good. The carnitas were super good they tasted like homemade.

Realizing the fact that I am talking about a Mexican grocery store probably sounds weird to some people but that's how it is in the United States. We have grocery stores for different kinds of food. But it's kinda banger and I don't mind it. But I do mind that the better two ones are further away than the kinda mid one in our city.

I have a confession. I am a larper.

Why do I say that? Because my ass is now larping having barbecue sauce. I asked for 2 things of bbq when we went to Farmer Boys last week because I knew my grandma didn't buy bbq sauce even though I put it on the list (I walked into a Walmart though and I could have picked it up so I guess I'm also the idiot. Not that I'm blaming her or anything.) Like, this is the 2nd cup and all I thought was "I gotta make it last. I gotta really make this last." But the truth is I just need barbecue sauce. I can't live like this. It's driving me insane. We went into several markets and I've not had any barbecue sauce for the last 2 weeksand it's not like I'm constantly eating chicken nuggets all the time but I've been in one of those phases where I just really crave a plate of chicken nuggets and fries and oh my god not having the barbecue sauce is driving me up the wall. It's 6 am and I'm crashing out about the lack of the barbecue sauce.

I think the sane thing that needs to happen is simply that Sanji needs to make the barbecue sauce get to it chef boy please I'm dying here I'm like a rat without wings and I need to be saved.

I got some takeout because my grandparents asked me what I wanted from the cafe they went to, and they had told me they had chicken caesar salad and I was like "yeah that's it that's what I want." Like I know I never ever get full with just a chicken caesar salad and then it's like midnight and I'm wondering about the state of my life and why I constantly do this to myself but then I remember how chicken caesar salad tastes and I'm like "I have forgiven me."

Mmmm yommi midnight cereal. They're like little pillows of wheat, sugar, and milk.

In all honesty, it's been a while since I've had cereal, mostly because milk is so damn sugary, as well as the cereal itself. But sometimes it's kinda nice to stop worrying about counting the carbs and just eat whatever the fuck you want within reason because you're writing your blog post and crashing out and crying into your cereal.

What a fun time.

It's been a while since I made anything that was, I don't know... remotely somewhat healthy? So I decided to make stirfry. Well, I guess it's not the most healthy, but I always put a lot of asparagus, mushrooms, garlic, and onions whenever I make an actual dish, and I know it works wonders for cholesterol. I had a bit of red meat that we got for fajitas initially, but like... I admittedly don't like bellpeppers. So I didn't do that. I wonder if the sodium intake on this was high though, because I used a lot of worcestershire sauce due to the noodles.

Still, maybe if I tell myself that this is healthy, it will become healthy. I swear my sodium intake is normal--As normal as it can be for someone who lives in the US.

I really want Boba though after eating this.

I left rerun soup again. I didn't have rice this time, but like, the broth in albondigas is pretty cloudy and starts looking kinda reddy-orangey after a while so I just didn't take a photo. So I took a photo of these cookies I ate. They're those like wafers with creme. Truth be told, I really like ones with strawberry cream more than vanilla, but I'm not about to reject snacks. I also only photographed 2 but I will say that I maybe ate more than 2 and then like tomorrow I'm going to regret that and cry that I gained weight from eating literal garbage as usual.

Decided to get butter pecan ice cream with cajeta (as if it needed more sugar) because I made myself sad by writing fanfiction of my oc with my friend where I put said oc in the endless torture nexus because I'm bored and want to regurgitate childhood trauma.

I had albondigas soup for dinner. Homemade too. Mine always turns red, because I put my rice in it. I also had flour tortillas with it but those kind of evaporated in an instance. Well either way, this hit just perfectly. It's been kinda gloomy and overcast lately. Weird for the end of May, to be quite honest. But it sucks because my allergies are going INSANE in the meanwhile. It shouldn't be like this. It's so fucked up. Put me out of my misery. The soup didn't help with the allergies as much as I thought it would. In fact, I think I sneezed just as much.

I made chicken nuggets at 2 am because I was starving. Not only did I get told that the lighting made it seem like he was interrogating me for not eating (beacuse I will admit that I uh... don't tend to eat as much as I should) but also, we completely ran out of barbecue sauce and I thought they were supposed to get more and they didn't get more. We went to the market yesterday and still didn't get more. And then they went to walmart today and I think they STILL didn't get more. I'm fucking dying out here please I need barbecue sauce. I felt like a 5 year old using ketchup on my chicken nuggets. I love barbecue. I love brown sugar barbecue and honey barbecue and any other kind of barbecue just please give me the goddamn barbecue I fucking need it. I'm living in a hell of my own making. Because my greedy ass has been craving the chicken nuggets so hard. I don't know how I'm losing weight still. I feel like I eat the same way a malnourished opossum would. In theory I should be gaining it all back. But here I am.

I know this says "meal log" but like hear me out hear me out now: This is my new favorite thing. He is soft he is huggable he is loveable and he just wants to feed you. I have to share all my meals with him. Particularly because I have no place for him and I don't want to sentence him to the plush net just yet but oh my god. Best plush I bought since Mofuyama sorry Minicolle Kaiba get the hell outta here.

Maybe having him on my desk will shame me into eating better. I eat somewhat healthy food (a lot of greens when I'm not being a dumpster diving rat) but I could probably do a lot better if I ate like... breakfast lunch and dinner not just a single meal.

So I'll leave him there.

I'm posting this retroactively because I found a photo of it in my phone. But it was such a good milkshake that I need to tell you all about it. Like, I made that all myself (as if making a milkshake is necessarily some sort of revolutionary recipe that is anywhere near difficult.) But also look at the presentation it looks so good so yummy right? It was just vanilla icecream, ice, milk, and cajeta. But it was so good. I want to make another one, just looking at it. Oh my god. But we don't have a lot of ice cream right now so I suppose I will suffer. Also yes I kept the Maplestory collab cup from Sunright Tea cause its so cute.

Also yes I'm like a rat that wants to shovel like fistfuls of caramel into my mouth at any given moment. Why do you ask?